Simplicity Of A Twisted Mind

2009-12-25T01:05:00.005+05:30

Change .....

So here i am writing a new post, in a new blog on old blog site.

Why did i not post all this while? Well i guess I needed change. I feel the need to box my belongings molecular or digital and let them become antiques. May be someday when I am ready to relive the past i might just open them up. But as of now i just dont want to hold on to my past.

This coming year (2010) I will move to another place for PhD and leave Syracuse for good. Yahh read that again and in between.. “FOR GOOD”. And i hope the day comes soon.

In the last one year I have seen transforming into a dull, boring homosapien. Even a mannequin would be more fun to hangout with. Just to elaborate a bit more, if i were to hang out with myself i would have jumped in Hudson bay in the snowy winter cold of NY just for some excitement.

If I jog my memory a little bit I was never like this before. I always had things to do, crazy friends to have fun with. Every new day was never like a burden in fact it meant a fresh set of 24 hrs to do some new, crazy and fun. High School was magical, Undergard was crazy, Grad School is as dull as dishwater.

Grad School: Well i cant exactly blame Grad School I am the one to be blamed and yes the restricted, monotonous life of a grad student. If I look deep into grad school life, its actually not as bad as i thought i was. I was the one who was making it boring. I realized i am used to a life style ( courtesy: 4 yrs of Undergrad) which is a polar opposite of gard school life. The worst part: “I never adapted, I never learned”. I was trying to live like i used to, but it was near to impossible and used get frustrated, wondering what to do how keep myself all hyper. 1st year went by nicely. In 2nd year my priorities changed. This included a certain person or a group of people, fixing my boring life, finding out what to do and yes of course my career.

It was a mess. Nothing was going right. And one fine day all fell apart. I broke my own rules and allowed people and circumstances to change me. It was a mistake and a lesson well learnt.

Friends: “Forsake not an old friend; for the new is not comparable to him: a new friend is as new wine; when it is old, thou shalt drink it with pleasure”.

Whosoever wrote those line knew what he was writing. I have made friends and a shit load of them, but i know only few of them will always be there when i need them. And I feel I am happy and lucky to have them, a few more to the group would only make me proud and ultra lucky :D.

Although my definition of friendship has changed a lot since i came here. I always thought i was scary judge of character, but I guess I was little early to make that conclusion. I have friends here but i dont know how many of them are my close.

I was taught: “make you own principles and follow them religiously” and ” trust only those who without being selfish will stand up for you”.

I forgot them all. Did wrong things and trusted fake, selfish people.

Anyways whats done is done. So i will not change but adapt. From now i will do everything that i used to do and always wanted to do but for some odd reason never ventured into.

My plans for coming few year:

* Start playing my guitar again.

* Buy a car and go around US. (I really miss my Undergrad bike adventures)

* Every year I’ll go to 2 countries for a week each.

* Start writing again.

* Spend less time on computer and do some real things

* Study 4 days a week and work my a** off. But not become a nerd. The remaining 3 days do all the above things plus party :D.

Easier said than done, but i will do my best to keep up. !!

CHEERS !!!!!!!!

2009-01-16T21:02:00.006+05:30

10 mins out in the cold !!! @ -23*C ........ partially naked !!

This is something I do every winter here in Syracuse. Whenever the temp goes below -20*C i go out at-least for 5 min in t-shirt and shorts. And within those 5 min even my balls freeze.

The winter cold is killing me !!!!

just went out !!!

2009-01-02T22:45:00.004+05:30

If You Can’t Make It, Steal It

( click on the pic to enlarge it )

MicroSoft, MicroSoft .... !!!!! they just had to do it. I think they should change there name ..

Micor"Steal"oft!

Windows 7 the new trash bag in an Armani suit will come out some time soon. There were rumors that this would ( to some extnt ) look like Mac OS X. But i never believed them. I used to say why would MS put so much effort and money and bring out something really new and better just to tag themselves AGAIN as high tech/ high class thugs and or theives.

Look at the pic. The desktop looks exactly like Mac OS X ( the Dock is missing thought ... they will eventually put it there in later versions of Windows 7 .. i guess ).

2009-01-02T21:55:00.003+05:30

If this wont give you an heart attack ... what would !!!!

I found this on BBC news site. This guy's account showed and overdraft of 100 bn ponds and the bank only offered him 10 pounds as compensation.
Imagine if the guy had an heart attack after seeing the 11 digit no, what good would 10 pounds do to him. One wouldnt get to see even a hair of a doctor for 10 pounds these days.

BBC news:

Donald Moffat, 38, from Irvine, said that on Tuesday morning his Barclays account was showing two separate withdrawals of £50bn.

The bank said a "technical error" was to blame and apologised.

Mr Moffat said Barclays also offered £10 in compensation for the phone calls he had to make to resolve the error.

The full-time student, who is also a part-time care worker, e-mailed a copy of his bank statement to BBC Scotland.

It showed a debit balance on 30 December of " just" under £100bn.

2008-12-17T06:18:00.002+05:30

Loveleen ek Joke bataoo !!!!

*) Q: How do you get a one-armed man out of a tree?
A: You wave to him.
*)A blonde went to the appliance store sale and found a bargain. "I would like to buy this TV," she told the salesman.
"Sorry, we don't sell to blondes," he replied.

She hurried home and dyed her hair, then came back and again told the salesman, "I would like to buy this TV."

"Sorry, we don't sell to blondes," he replied.

"Darn, he recognized me," she thought.

She went for a complete disguise this time; haircut and new color, new outfit, big sunglasses, then waited a few days before she again approached the salesman. "I would like to buy this TV."

"Sorry, we don't sell to blondes," he replied.

Frustrated, she exclaimed, "How do you know I'm a blonde?"

"Because that's a microwave," he replied.

*)A married couple was in a terrible accident where the woman's face was severely burned. The doctor told the husband that they couldn't graft any skin from her body because she was too skinny. So the husband offered to donate some of his own skin. However, the only skin on his body that the doctor felt was suitable would have to come from his buttocks.

The husband and wife agreed that they would tell no one about where the skin came from, and requested that the doctor also honor their secret. After all, this was a very delicate matter.

After the surgery was completed, everyone was astounded at the woman's new beauty. She looked more beautiful than she ever had before! All her friends and relatives just went on and on about her youthful beauty!

One day, she was alone with her husband, and she was overcome with emotion at his sacrifice.

She said, "Dear, I just want to thank you for everything you did for me. There is no way I could ever repay you."

"My darling," he replied, "think nothing of it. I get all the thanks I need every time I see your mother kiss you on the cheek."

*) I immediately went out and bought a book on anger management. And now I have that book, and I don't know if I'll get to the book. But I'm certainly excited about the day where I can't find the book, and I get to say, 'Where the hell is my anger management book?!'

2008-12-17T02:25:00.002+05:30

Winter is Weird !!!

I used to hear that in winters your brain doesnt work. When i say work it means "mental exercise" (@least that is what i thought). But !! But !! i never thought this included " clumsiness ".
And if i were to write a book on "winter acts" which i have seen and njoy people do ( this also includes cryptmaster )i could easily win booker's prize for a comic book ( if such an award exists).

Here is the list:
*) I was about to put washing power in my food insted of salt.
*) ( my usual act ) put my cold coffee in microwave
*) I am always in dilema .. ( for the whole winter season )
*) I also suffer from amneisa ... in winters ofcourse, just in case u guys doubt the length of it duration.
*) I do and re-do things ... ( even if they are "perfecto" ).
*) I eat alot .. u can call me a Pig ( in winters Only !!! ).
*) December is a month of pranks ... ( last december i mailed my US frds that i am going to india. They all called their parents and told them to get some stuff ready for me to bring them. I later .. after a 15 odd days told them ... i was kidding :P... and back home all their stuff was ready for a trip to US of A ..... This year some chick called my lab , mistaking it to be some other office of my university ... i kept her on hold for say about 15 min, before hanging up :P )
*) I laugh alot.. even on serious situations.
*) My obsession with knives reaches another level. ( i am not a serial killer )
*) The 3-4 fts of snow outside hipnotises me sometimes .. and i wanna go out and roll in the snow " NAKED". ( i once did such a thing ... but i had a t-shirt and shorts on... only @ -28*C )

I am tierd now .... enough of self-humiliation.

2008-11-26T21:55:00.003+05:30

Boredom + Irritation - Jump - 2Walk - Naagin - etc = Happy Man !!!!

This is not new @all. I am BORED !!
In the last two weeks two of my trips have been cancelled. First one (to Ohio State University, ... Indian Ocean was performing and I really wanted to go BUT !!!... ) it was me who cancelled it because of some nonsense project of some shity course ( which i regret taking ... ) the second a rock climbing expedition: that was cancelled because some because the organizer thought that not many people signed up for it ..so " Lets cancell it " !!!. ( I got a mail for the rock climbing thing getting cancelled ..... the first words that came off were " I KEEEEEEEEEL YOU " ...from the dead terrorist : Achmend act " :P )

So coming back to my boredom !! I was do irritated and bored yesterday ... that i could have :

* Jumped off Link hall ( the engineering building ) without parachute .. just for excitement
* Walked in " the cold November Rain @ -3*C " for 45 min without an umbrella or a jacket (I was @ my friends place ( E. colvin st ) which was a approx 45 min walk from my house..just in case you guys r wondering y 45 min )
*Walked in the middle of the road for abt a mile ..and irritate people. ( which i kind of did .... for 100 mt only ... but guess what. not a single car came .... dammm )

and few more crazy things. And yaah if i had you people ( Sly , junkie , ganja, sood and gang ..) here, would have done that " Corn Hub " thing for sure this time !!!

In the end ..wanted to see Decible palying " NAAGIN " live here in the university last nite !!!

2008-11-15T07:34:00.002+05:30

Song !!!

This is a song by " Jessica Lea Mayfield " named "bible days".

The lyrics may not be that great but for me the best part is the way she sings ... and the voice. Its different !!!

2008-11-05T21:14:00.002+05:30

Remember Remember the "5th" of November !!!

Yes !!!! Remember it ... not because it Obama became the president of US ( well if you want you can mark it that way ) but because the 5th of November is the day when coincidentally one man or few people try to change something, SOMETHING that large enough to affect the lives of not hundreds but millions of people.

Two events mark the "5th" of November as a " the day of Changes ". One event is of course the election of Obama as the president of USA. The first African American to get the highest office in USA. ( just in case you are wondering .... " whats the big deal "? ... the ans. It is a big deal ... for a person who is not tagged as "white" to become the most poweful man in USA .... is a "biggg deal". )

This is " THE change ". !!!!

The second event dates back to 1605, in the era of King James 1 of England. It was on this day
"the 5th of November" a man named Guy Fawkes decided to blow up the HOUSE OF LORDS and end the touturous era of King James 1. But he was unsucessful. !!!

Though his attempt... did create a revolt against King James 1. ( again the "chnage" )

2008-10-20T21:01:00.006+05:30

Yearbook Yourself !!!

By now almost every student here in US knows about this site ...
this is what you can do .. using this awesome timepass link !!!

2008-10-13T22:43:00.002+05:30

Remember the movie " 21 " :

Remember this scene :

At first i couldnt understand what ... this guy was saying ....
now i do !!!.. watch this . Its really interesting .... ( this is the explanation ...)

MONTY HALL PROBLEM !!!!!

2008-09-26T20:44:00.002+05:30

Hail Floyd ... Hail Rick Wright !!!!!!!!!!

Another legend passed away.
I didnt get the news till 17th, ....... thanks to orkut i found out the Wright died. ( its not like if i had found out a bit earlier i would have gone to his funeral ... but still ).
Its sad ... anyhow !!!!

I was listening to few The Doors songs when i found out about wright's death. The moment i read it " the end " started playing ...... now this is what i call timing !!!! This was like one of Sly's weird incidents, not the Deja vu ones .... but one of the weird ones.

May Rick Wright ...... " Rest In Peace " !!!!
I some how feel .... posting the lyrics of ... " the end " !!!!
so here is .... " the end " : doors .

This is the end
Beautiful friend
This is the end
My only friend, the end

Of our elaborate plans, the end
Of everything that stands, the end
No safety or surprise, the end
Ill never look into your eyes...again

Can you picture what will be
So limitless and free
Desperately in need...of some...strangers hand
In a...desperate land

Lost in a roman...wilderness of pain
And all the children are insane
All the children are insane
Waiting for the summer rain, yeah

Theres danger on the edge of town
Ride the kings highway, baby
Weird scenes inside the gold mine
Ride the highway west, baby

Ride the snake, ride the snake
To the lake, the ancient lake, baby
The snake is long, seven miles
Ride the snake...hes old, and his skin is cold

The west is the best
The west is the best
Get here, and well do the rest

The blue bus is callin us
The blue bus is callin us
Driver, where you taken us

The killer awoke before dawn, he put his boots on
He took a face from the ancient gallery
And he walked on down the hall
He went into the room where his sister lived, and...then he
Paid a visit to his brother, and then he
He walked on down the hall, and
And he came to a door...and he looked inside
Father, yes son, I want to kill you
Mother...i want to...fuck you

Cmon baby, take a chance with us
Cmon baby, take a chance with us
Cmon baby, take a chance with us
And meet me at the back of the blue bus
Doin a blue rock
On a blue bus
Doin a blue rock
Cmon, yeah

Kill, kill, kill, kill, kill, kill

This is the end
Beautiful friend
This is the end
My only friend, the end

It hurts to set you free
But you'll never follow me
The end of laughter and soft lies
The end of nights we tried to die

2008-09-26T19:57:00.002+05:30

The Week !!!!

In the last 10 days i have seen my mood flicker like anything. It started with 2 major disappointments. By major i mean ... they were in real sense mental breakdown kinds. Then came the time when i was " ME " again. I felt like i was in Nagpur again. Those were fun days where i spent more time out on the roads and in CCD than flipping the pages of my course book. And not to mention the crazy things we did ( Parsee graveyard was one of those .... and i hope everybody remembers what we had planned for the Corn Hub restaurant ).

I was back doing everything i love ... !!!!

But i guess good times dont last long. I saw two things: one last thursday and one this thursday. Some how i couldnt stop thinking about these two events. One of these i cant discuss. The other ( 25th sept one ) just felt as bad as the other.

It was 1pm, i was having lunch in a restaurant in the university. There was a garbage outside, a homeless guy with a trolly full of his clothes and random stuff came, dug out a box of fries and a bottle of coke from the grabage box( which had only few drops of coke left in it ). He gulped all the fries, drank all the coke that was left ........ and I just couldnt stop staring at him. Eventually i stopped eating my stuff.

I looked around and saw about 20 people enjoying their lavish meal and "there" was a man who just had few sticky little fries as a solid lunch ( which looked like " the meal of the day" for him ) and few drops of coke to quench his thirst.

Imagine !!!!!

2008-09-17T00:06:00.002+05:30

With what name do u call a girl when you are drunk ......... TAMANNA !!!!!

This is a real incident !!!! which took place in March 08 @ one of my friends party.

People Involved :

Me : Ashish
Friend : Varun
Senior : Vaibhav
Senior : Aman

It was around 1:30 am, people were drinking, dancing etc. Me, Aman and Vaibhav we on the couch tired after dancing. Vaibhav was completely drunk ... OUT , STONED !!!!!

And we all know what people do when they get drunk. Vaibhav i am assuming had a friend or a crush on a girl named " Tamanna ".

Here is a narration of what happened that night.

Vaibhav ( sitting next to a girl ) : Heyyy !!!! You are Tamanna ..... right !!???
Girl : ( gives a ?ed face .... as if she said What !!!! ) !!!
Aman : Vaibhav ... lets go home .. you are so out !!!!
Vaibhav : No she is Tammana .... Aman . i know ...and i am fine and not going home !!
Ashish : Vaibhav ... ok then sit and keep it shut !!!
Vaibhav ( see's another girl passing by ...) : Aman ... look there is Tamanna !!!!!
Aman : Ashish ... do something !!!!
Ashish ( laughing is guts off ) : What can i do !!! ...
Vaibhav ( eyeing the same girl ) : I have to talk to Tamanna .... ( he get up !! )
Aman ( trying to pull Vaibhav back ) : Vaibhav ... shut up and squat !!! she is not Tamanna .... let her go !!!

Vaibhav: I know she is Tamanna .... plzzzz i just need ot talk to her !!!
Ashish: ( still laughing @ the scene Vaibhav is creating )
Vaibhav: Abey why do they all look like Tamanna !!!???
Aman : dude !!! they all different girls ..... and they are not certainly Tanmanna !!! so ditch them !!!

Vaibhav ( again get up and walks to the hall ): Tamanna .... i am comming !!!! :P
Aman and Ashish : ( hahahahahahhahahah :) )

This all continued for a while !!!!

Then we kicked him in a car and drove home !!!!

This was one hilarious scene !!!!!

2008-09-08T09:18:00.002+05:30

Blood Suckers !!!!

I have had blood tests like a zillion times and normally the docs take only few milliliters of my blood. ( when i say few i mean single digit measure and that to less that 5 ).

But this was the second time when these innocent blood suckers took more that that was required.
I was ill for like a week. I went to the university health services for my blood test. The nurse there took 2 full big test tubes of my blood for just one test.

By 2 full big test tube i mean .. around 25 ml of blood. Dammmm

I know its for free but that doesnt give these white coat creatures to suck it like leeches and mosquitoes.

2008-09-08T07:30:00.004+05:30

The day I Entered My House ............................. ( wait for it )

as a thief !!!!!!!!!!

The is how the story started. One of my room-ates decided to have a leak, he twisted the bathrooms knob but he realized that it was locked. So he did the obvious .... he knocked and asked the bathroom occupant to hurry up. But surprisingly no body replied and then he noticed that the bathroom light was also off.
So he checked our rooms and noticed that ... none of us was actually in the bathroom. We all talked and after a while we concluded the some how the door got locked from the inside.

And there was only one way to get into the bathroom .... a slit ( 1 ft by 1.5 ft ) which we call " Window ".

The photographs show the " break in " point. ( the window on the extreme right in the first photograph ).

Me being the skinner had to go in and open the door.

It was fun !!!!! :)

2008-08-26T19:47:00.003+05:30

Rise Up ..... nice music, awesome video !!!!

watch the skippers ..... somewhere in the middle of the video watch them skip on their bumps ..hahah. They got springs " up their arses [:P] " ... hahahah

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mouM5fw6HoA

2008-08-26T18:59:00.003+05:30

Silly Video !!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G0LtUX_6IXY

awareness test

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=47LCLoidJh4

Prank : watch the cyclist @ the end !!

People watch this.... nicee video !!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jwMj3PJDxuo

Crosswalk !!!! poor car drivers !!!! [:P]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gHT_ufv2iY8

2008-08-24T19:36:00.003+05:30

Butter Fingers !!!!!

These are one of those days when things are just not going right. And i am getting clumsier [:P].
Since yesterday about 10 things have slipped out of my hands.

Here is a list: ( the counts are approx. no. )

*) Few bottles ( includes a coke and a bottle a water ) ------ 4-5 times
*) A small HRC shot glass ( which broke )
*) Ice Tray ---- about 3 times
*) My cell phone --- " 10 " times !!!!!!! ( am about to get rid of my Grandpa style cell soon ... niceee )
*) My Ipod --- 5 times
*) My camera lens ( which survived --- my heart was in mouth for a moment ) ... just once !!
*) And a small keg of milk ....

huh !!!

I am glad i dont play around with laptop, otherwise ......... !!!!!

2008-08-24T09:07:00.002+05:30

Where has the " Spirit " gone !!!!

Every morning I watch India's news and read articles @ Rediff.
Rediff is my primary source of info when it comes to interesting articles. Today when i opened Rediff's site i saw a an article which was on a Cuban martial atrs Olympian. He hit the Match referee ( actually kicked him on his face ). The reason was that the referee ruled the match in favor of the Cuban guy's opponent due to something ( the match wasnt over officially ). I dont know who was at fault, but hitting the officials or the opponents is just not in the spirit of the any game. Even if it was the referee's fault, he should have gone and talked to the event chairperson or the olympics commitee.
I do understand that these atheletes get only one shot in 4 years, so things are intence and the pressure of Olympics is in itself is titanic. So its very easy to get carried away and do things like these... but why take matters in your hands and be the " LAW ". Its is quite possible that the Cuban guy wont get to represent his country anymore in any international event. He just did not kick the referee, he also kicked his future Goodbye !!!!!.

What was even more disappointing, was when the Cuban guy hit the referee, the other guy was still rejoicing over his circumstantial victory. He just did not care about what was going on at the other end. He was busy is monkey style dancing.
He didn't even make any attempt to stop the Cuban guy from going any further.

here is the video : ... initially few pics will be displayed but after a while the complete video on the incident will start.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=24BLj5DmbBw&feature=related

2008-08-23T10:13:00.004+05:30

A new Band ... and good songs !!!

These days we dont get to see new bands really producing good songs. These days i am listening to this new band " Saving Abel " ... they these 4 good songs ...

Addicted:

Sailed Away :

18 days:

Beautiful Day:

2008-08-22T05:26:00.003+05:30

Khoon Chala !!!!!!!

I wasnt there when this happened and i deeply regret not being a part of it.
15th Aug India's Independence day ... wasnt celebrated here in my university, but people here did do something that has to be commended ....

here watch this !!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lDZULALkWXs

JAI HIND !!!!

2008-08-22T00:22:00.003+05:30

GOD !!!!!! ......... I Hate Myself !!!!!

yaahh you read that right .... I " HATE " myself to an extent that i detest my very existence.

Why ..

*) I am an incompetent asshole
*) Procrastination is in my blood .. ( but i do eventually complete things )
*) I am a ( in Steve Waugh's words ) " Choker " . I do everything right but when it really matters, I put myself down and end up doing things horribly wrong.

*) People hate me even more for what I am.
*) I am like jack of all trades but master of none. ( ask me one thing that i am really good @ : as in expert .... i'll probably give you a blank face )
*) I hate my life .... my luck tries to make up for it, but even that has turned shity recently.
*) I am in a wrong place, doing some thing i shouldn't be !!

I can go on ..... in short i hate everything about myself !!!!!!

2008-08-18T09:32:00.009+05:30

Crazy Driving !!!!!......

Today we were coming back to Syracuse and we were late as we had to reach by 6 pm anyhow ...
so whenever we got a chance we did this ......

100-110 miles/hr

2008-08-18T09:03:00.004+05:30

Who is Mic Jackson .... again ?????

This vdo was taken in the subway to NYC ... and believe me somehow i love it. It was not extra ordinary but was gr8 watching this dwarf doing some quality moonwalk.
I guess the NYC subway has more to offer that times sq.

2008-08-18T08:30:00.006+05:30

Times Sq and HRC .... Vdoz !!!

HRC : Suits of " the Beatles "

2008-08-18T05:42:00.010+05:30

Some random vdos .... from my NYC trip !!!!

The first 3 vdoz are of St Partick's Cathedral

Apple Store

Bikes @ 53rd and 6th

2008-08-16T18:38:00.002+05:30

Where to ? ..... NYC !!!!...... hmm ok wait for me !!

Yesterday my friend rented a car, i asked him where he was heading to ? He didnt reply but instead asked me to tag along. I had no plans of leaving Syracuse or even my home yesterday evening, but the moment he told me that he was going to NYC for a day.... I was ready in a flash. Packed my bags in 10 min ... and off we were to NYC.

This is my 3rd unplanned visit to NYC.

Well i am in NYC right now so dont have much to write, but here are few interesting things I noticed along the way

1) A 2 mile long traffic jam ... in which were stuck for an hour.
2) we saw weird white circles on the road which we had never seen befor ( they were some kind of traffic signs .. and we had no idea what they ment )
3) for about 2 hrs of journey were surrounded by mist ( it was so dense that calling it a fog wont be wrong ... we couldnt even see the moon or the lamps ... it was that thick ). 22* C it was (70*F) and as far as i know 20*C is not cold enough to create a fog that dense.
4) after we were out of the fogy area, we had a crystal clear sky above .. but even though we could see rain drops on our screen and aournd us. ( this is not that strange .. but good enough )
5) I have never been tailgated by a monster truck. But this was the day it happend.
There was this mad truck driver who was almost driving bumper to bumper with every car that was in front of him. Imagine driving 70-80 miles/hr with the fear of crushed by a gigantic truck.... hahahah.

6)Lastly : We lost the race against our GPS. Our GPS showed the estimated time to reach our destination..... which was 11:06 pm. When i say race againgst our GPS i mean we set up a target time less than what our GPS shows and try to make it within that targeted time.
So we normally dont loose but this time we did..... " shit ". In the end we were off traget by quite a bit... we reached around 11:15 pm.

2008-08-15T04:37:00.002+05:30

Why is it so hard .... ?? Just say it !!!

I have no idea why people find it so hard to just step up and ..... say it all something on somebody's face. If you want to admit something, abuse somebody, propose to someone or whatever .. just say it. People just try to express themselves in every possible way they can but they just dont take the easiest way out, which is " blatantly say it on the face " !!!!!! Come on how hard it is ?

I can understand, ya if the person you are talking to is your friend, you may not want to be rude and egregiously blunt ...... but i feel one should speak ones heart out. You may want to keep shut for few days but you must say it when its time.

I have been seeing people around me trying to push me away and i have no clue why they are doing that. And i dont think i did something wrong to earn that kind of an attitude. If feel these people or this one person doesnt want me around. So if that's the case .... just say it .
" Dude " i just dont want you here..... end of topic .

Is it that hard !!!!!!! naaah i dont think so ...... and i do wanna know the reason !!!!

2008-08-14T20:24:00.002+05:30

Have mercy on me ... dear Router !!!!!

My router has nasty sleeping habit. It stops working whenever it wants to, works whenever it wants to. It has mind of it's own ( i wonder ... that is the effect of the Terminator series ).

What irritates me the most is the frequent toggling between its sleep and wake modes. And this happens when i am doing something really important on the net.

Yesterday was one of those that when my router was at its best "worst" behavior. I was cussing it like anything. I restarted it many times, but that didnt help at all.
Well ... i had other ways !!!! it kicked it, slapped it ... and waaallllaaaaahhhhh it stared working.

But what i didnt realize was after all that thrashing, it just had to do something to annoy me even more.
So the time came ..... i was filling up my UK visa forms. Just when i completed it and i was about to make the payment ( and to save the form ) that F********* router stopped working. And for 10 min it remained that way.

As a result all my forms got erased and the UK Visa server logged me out. And above all that my forms we not saved. .... i was so pissed that i felt like ripping it ( router ) apart.
But thats the only router i have .....

So moral of the story is ...... Never ever beat up your router !!!!! ( @least i wont do it )

2008-08-09T01:51:00.002+05:30

Questions ????????
( another one of my silly ... time killing posts )

Lately i have been asking people 5 weird Qs. At first i thought that people would say " WTF what kind of silly Q is that .. or dont you have anything better to do? " And i had answers ready for those kind of replies.
But to my surprise....... they all seriously answered my Qs !!!
They were interesting ...

Q1) ( a standard Q ) What all things would you do if somebody told you that you had just 6 more months to live.

Q2) If your competitor or your enemy challenged you to do something you dread the most, would you do it? ............. If not then why ??

Q3) If something or certain situation demands you to leave something or someone that's dearest to you ........ Would you give up ? ( and you know giving up is the only way out ).

Q4) Well all have a dream job and a life that we all want to live. And you will go to any extent to get them both. And if by some miracle you get both of this.... wow !!!. Now somebody offers you to trade this gifted job and life with all the money Bill Gates has ............. Would you accept the money and leave what to desired and respected the most?

Q5) Do you want a long life ( a happy life but a bit boring and bit monotonous, where you have a good job, nice house ... but its the same 24*7 ) or ..... a short one where you do the most amazing things and you get to do things a person could only dream on doing even of he/she get to live for say 100 yrs?

I got some really crazy answers ... and boy i loved those conversations.
I would want you guys to think and reply if you feel like.

2008-08-09T01:12:00.003+05:30

Gran Apertura : 2008 Olympics

Today I watched the opening ceremony of the Olympics 2008. And as per me it was by far the most beautiful opening ceremonies ever. I loved the Athens Olympics ceremony and i had he feeling then ( and i guess till today ..b4 i watched the show ) that it was divine. And i guess it still holds its crown for the best Olympic ceremony ever.
But today's show on 08/08/08 stands along side Athens's.

The 2 things that swing the balance on China's side were the fireworks and the way they lit the Olympic torch.
The firework was awesome and absolutely spectacular. And as for the touch thing the concept of the flying man was class apart.

2008-08-09T00:49:00.002+05:30

Hyper Time !!!!

Its been one year here and there were times when i was swamped with work. Yesterday i got a glimpse of whats in store for me for the next few months. This will be a : "Mammoth work load".

And i have no idea how am i gonna keep this up with my on-campus job next semester.
And i hope this doesnt kill my leisure time.

2008-08-04T06:14:00.002+05:30

Space, Eclipse, Earth .... Cosmos and Heaven.

Yesterday me and my friend were having a discussion on what we thought of space odysseys. And i wanted to tell her that it could be a beautiful and spell bounding adventure.
Space, Cosmos are synonyms of Heaven. People say earth is beautiful, by god it is !! But imagine how beautiful that thing would be .... that created this planet earth.

I agree space is dangerous but, at the same time its beautiful. You get to see some of the most amazing creations of God. Its one gigantic firework show. Its a place where every single spark, every single flame of fire, every explosion and every collision is a master piece of an art named COSMOS ( aka space ).

I can go on and write pages on this ... but i'll just stop here. The whole purpose of this post was to put up this video of the recent solar eclipse taken from a plane.

I wish i could see a solar eclipse from a plane.. NO WAIT ... from space. For a second imagine the whole picture ... you are in space, in a space shuttle or in a space station and solar eclipse happens. Ohhhhhh !!!! that would be .... DIVINE !!!!!!!!!!

Here is the link to that video .....

http://gizmodo.com/5032374/beautiful-video-of-a-solar-eclipse-taken-from-an-airplane

2008-07-24T04:39:00.003+05:30

Am I worth 500 $ !!!!!!

My insurance is exp. on August 1st. And its cost a whooping 500 $. And in times when you are living on a shoe string budget then even 500 $ look like $ 5 mil.

I was going though my finances today and thought am i worth 500 $. The answer ... " NO " !!!.
I cost a lot less that $ 500. :P

Believe me its very hard ... to give away those 500 $ every 6 months. Seriously .. i can do 4 10000 ft jumps, or go on a road trip after renting a car for say a week, or i can buy a Pool table.
I can think of a thousand things worth doing with that amount of 500.

But why that insurance !!!!!..

And whats with this university, why cant i enroll for classes without the insurance. That's simply my problem, my life .... i'll deal with my health and life problems, why is the university so worried.

Its not that i am after money ... or i would die for it ( money is one of the last things in my lists of priorities ), but why spend it on some shity insurance.

2008-07-23T05:35:00.007+05:30

Terrace Walk !!!!!

As usual i had nothing to do this evening ( rather i didnt want to do anything ). I was bored of watching movies/tv shows on my laptop , or lets say i was bored of my laptop. And only source of entertainment in and near univ is few hrs of quality Pool time. Bust since I dont have a Pool table here and the student center closes at 5, above all that I could hardly think of anything worth calling a time pass .... so i took a terrace walk.

In-fact !!! : I wrote this blog post just to kill time ...

I walked rather hopped out of the window on to the terrace with my best friend " My cam ".
Did some random shooting which included a shot of my camera itself. And believe me it wasnt me that took it, .. it was the cam itself . Sadly the only visilble body part was the strap and the lid.

Ohh ya there was one moment when i almost slipped of the edge. At least some excitement was there even though i lasted for few seconds.

This wasnt that much fun but .... was better than banging my head on the laptop.

" The Chimney "

Some Church

Comstock Place

2008-07-20T19:57:00.002+05:30

Mind Twister !!!!!!

My brain is screwed !!!!!.... BIG TIME !!!!!!!!!!!
I do silly things and the shity thing is I laugh on my own idiocities ( thats not even a word .. but i like it )

Things I do:

* This has happened twice in one wk. Instead of using a shampoo i ended up using the shower gel on my brainless screwed head.

* I prepared myself 2 slices of bread & jam took the ice cubes out for juice and guess what ..... i kept the bread / jam in the freezer and was walking away with the ice tray to my room.

* ( this happened a few day ago ) .. i was supposed to put some sugar in something instead i made it salty ( the usual F****up we all do .. sometimes )

* I keep things someplace and after a while i forget about their whereabouts. ( this happens mostly with my pens )

And as i say " of all the things i have lost i miss my mind the most " !!!!!

" where is my mind " ....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bPE2zKbORF0

2008-07-18T09:02:00.004+05:30

Weird Things happening !!!!!

I guess the title says it all, so i'll just list a few of them:

* I have been sleeping a lot less than i normally do. Some how my sleeping hrs have drastically reduced to 4-5 hrs and i cant sleep after that. How badly I need a a good nap only my eyes can tell. ( My eyes are so red in the morning even the mirror gets scared).

* I dream of me getting stuck in a cross fire and eventually getting shot. ( i guess these are the after effects of Counter Strike )

* I take out all my frustration on the Pool balls.

* Strange things are happening and i have no clue how to interpret them.

* I have a hunch that people have started hating me and in some or the other way they mock me because of my bluntness. ( and / or may be for some other reasons )

2008-07-16T17:44:00.003+05:30

Who cares ... !!!!

This is "again" one of my serious posts. And as my friend " SLY " comments : dude that's some heavy stuff . And seriously i dont know why i am writing this but i guess i feel like..

So here it is. Lately i have been thinking about few things, things that are not my problem but they kind of become mine. I guess this is because i think about them a lot or simply because i care about.
I try to hide them but they some how find their way to the surface. And no matter how glaringly obvious these problems become, nobody seems to care. " Story of my life ". Your problems you deal with them.

People wont budge, no matter how i hard you try to make people understand what you feel and what you want. And in the end you just leave it to fate. And hope time would do its job and make things right.

I have been trying to make people understand but now i know that they just dont care.

Reason?.. i mark it as " UNKNOWN ".

But they all pretend to care and as Shakespeare said " the world is a stage ...... " indeed it is ... and these people they all ACT ... ( and boy they ACT well ).

Quote: " I inhabit a weak, frail, decayed tenement, battered by the winds and broken in by the storms, and all i know is that the landlord does not care " !!!!!

2008-07-14T07:02:00.005+05:30

Black River .. My rafting experience !!!!

Today we went for a 5 hr violent ride on rapids of Black River. It had about 14 level 3-4 rapids. And believe me in 2 or 3 of those ... people had their hearts in mouth.

The best of all was a rapid named "cruncher". It was like 3 rapids clubbed together. Towards the end were two big rocks ( facing each other ) and two small rocks ( well inside the water ) were on there left and right of the big ones ( like the corners of a sq ). The big rocks formed two mounds of water and the small rocks caused turbulent tides. And the effect all these 4 rocks had was of a huge natural juggler.

Before we went into this " juggler " our guides told us about the hazards of this rapid, so just in case anybody wanted to back out that was the best time to raise the white flag.

We were in total 9 people. 5 were in one raft and 4 were in the other. We were supposed to go upstream into that "juggler". Both the teams couldnt do it @ first, so all hopped into one raft and moved in.

And here came the moment. We were counting our peddle strokes " 1 2 3" " 1 2 3". When we started the third round our 1 2 3z .. people started falling out, one by one.. 5 of them went down.
The guide told us not to swim in that juggler if we happen to fall get caught in it , because it was like a whirlpool, you would move in circles and the swim strokes wouldnt do any good. So we were asked to roll up in a ball and hope the water would spit us out. In the worst case scenario (if we couldnt get out of the spin ) our only hope was a rope.

4 of us we in the boat the whole time. And the raft was like a ball in hands of that rapid. It kept spinning, tossing , flipping us in every possible direction it could.

Finally after 4-5 minutes in the "juggler" we were thrown out of the rapid (not the raft ).

Then we all came down a 12 ft fall rapid and we were done with out tour of 14 rapids.

It was a fun, thrilling , "egg"citing , adrenalin pumping ride.

My next adventure and a long awaited one as well is a " sky dive ". I guess that would be in September. 2 months to save some money, 2 months to have the drive of a lifetime and 2 months to have a 10 sec tour of "heaven".

2008-07-13T16:20:00.002+05:30

All that's left is.....

Call it philosophy or call some random words from some random useless mind but my dear friends this is a "Gospel Fact".

Today i saw one of my friends put this in his gtalk ( google mail chat ) status bar and i couldnt resist putting this up here...

" People want to care, but they forget to do that. People want to help, but soon realize they can do something better with their time. People you wish would care, have a lot going in their lives to bother. People who will care, well you can't tell them you need care. People say they wont, but they forget you. You would like to think that you are unique, unforgettable; but it wont be soon before the world forgets you. All thats left is...for you to die alone. "

2008-07-12T05:49:00.003+05:30

The Song of Hope !!!!

Well lately i have been thinking a lot about certain things. They all just keep raising questions. Its like a chain reaction of Qs, one gives way to two and those two to 4 ... and so on. And i am just not thinking straight. ( Its not that i cant but its more like i am not able to ). Weird thoughts buzz in and move out. These are all about me and my present life and also about things that i " WILL"
( most certainly i will ) face in years to come.

All i need is hope. !!!!

In times like these i always turn to music.
They say music is the doctor of all.

So i just keep listening to this one song all day long. " Stairway to heaven " : Led Zeppelin .
I found a live version of this masterpiece by Ld Zep and the rythm is better that the original version. The deapth in its lyrics is simply divine.
Its like this song is keeping alive these days. And the best part is i dont get bored by listening to it repeatedly.
Mostly i try to listen to floyd in these situations but i dont know why i rate this one above foyd's songs these days.

Here is the song..... " Stairway To Heaven " : led Zeppelin 1973

2008-07-09T04:09:00.003+05:30

Get me something mouth watering, finger licking and slurpy to eat !!!!

Its been almost an year now and " and " i have never, not even once gorged in tasty meal.
I miss all the chicken tikkas, tanrdooris, paneer tikkas, halwa, gujiyas.
Everyday i eat my hand made disgusting food. Everyday i go in the kitchen hoping that i'll come out saying " ohhh my God .. this food, this .. my hand made food is so awesome" !!!!. Well you know its a hope.... just a hope.
And as my culinary skills are way beyond "worst" i can hope only for some miracle to get some "ohh M G " kind food off my hand.

2008-07-03T06:03:00.006+05:30

"THE VDO"....

This is some random vdo on some random TP (time pass) i do these days.
In case the vdo looks 2 fast:
this is what i was doing for about 2 hrs:

*) gtalk chat
*) ph calls
*) did some writing
*) tore every single molecule of the chewing gum i had in my mouth (that is y u see my lips moving)
*) ate maggie
*)tried to study .. ended up trying only
*) fiddled around with the football
*) etc etc .....

just in case... the link doesnt work... here is the link

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I4tcCpdOJH0

2008-07-01T03:51:00.004+05:30

A strange feeling, A weird Desire, Another Dream. !!!!!

" Tricolor": that's the flag ...

This is me Ashish Agrawal ( i see a spell check under my name ), and i guess this what i am "natures another mistake". Recently i saw a movie " wanted ", the actor Googled his name everyday just to know whether he exists in the dictionary of the world. Like me he got a prompt " no search results found ". This is not about " i want to be famous , popular or a rockstar", this is about one of dreams. Which ironically demands me to be a known figure, for it to become a real thing.
So here it is ...

I have India's national flag in my room, which happens to be right above my bed. Its the only things thats prominent and the only things that stands out in my room.

It feels great to lie down and stare it for a while. " IT SIMPLY FEELS GREAT " !!!
Its a feeling that only the most honoured men/women get to feel ( this doest not imply that i among those few ).

I sometimes wonder how would it feel to have a the " Tricolor " around your body and and the whole nation/world is watching you. One would understand it only if he/she sacrifises his/her life which is worthy of such an honour.

I know i'll never see such an event where i am the eyecatcher, but this is my dream. I "so" want to have that FLAG on and around me when i die.

2008-06-30T08:33:00.004+05:30

Canceled !!!!!! x-(

Its summer and I am busy making plans. Plans of going around and seeing places. Most of these were canceled, 'cos of various reasons.

I wanted to attend the Pearl Jam concert scheduled for 30th June in Mansfield, MA. This was one thing i really i wanted to do. But " history repeats itself " rite.... so even this was canceled.
A simple reason I had no company.

Its sad. ..

but here ... i am going to these two concerts.... and i dont care whether i go alone or with a dozen people, I AM GOING... !!!!!

" stamped and sealed " !!!!!!!!

Concerts :

" Bob Dylan " : 17th august Saratoga Spring , NY
" Chris Daughtry " : 21th august , Syracuse , NY
" Goo Goo Dolls and Def Leppard " : 22 aug and 24 aug Syracuse, NY.

2008-06-29T21:47:00.003+05:30

Cornell .... @ 2 am !!!!

" NANOTECH Building " : Cornell Universty.

" Olive Garden: Italian Restaurant "

We went for a lavish dinner last night @ Olive Garden ( an Italian Restaurant ). The restaurant was B...E....A ...U....T...I..ful and above that the food was awesome. It was 12:30 or 45 by the time we were done gorging in food. At 1 AM we came home picked some stuff and off we were to Ithaca. The reason we went there was, we didnt want to go home so early and the weather was gr8, cool winds and the smell of raindrops were pushing us to spend some time on the roads.
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It was fun, the wind gussing in the car from all sides ( ohhh and the sun roof .. made it even better). Cornell University ( an Ivy league ) was our target.

We reached Cornell @ 2:15. It was beautiful. Its entrance is through a gaurge. Imagine u have a natural fall in you university. The duo of old medivial style and modern structures was deadly.

We stolled there for about and hour. We all wanted to have a leak then. It took us 30 min to find one loo. We checked all the buildings that our eyes laid sight on. But none of them were open for us ( the all req. Cornell IDs ). In the end we found one building we could have never imagined to have open doors, newly constructed "NANOTECHNOLOGY Building". The was one awesome structure. It was no less than a 3 start hotel. 3 storied bulding will gr8 labs and machines huh !!!!. I wish i had that kin do fbuilding here in my univ.

We did what we came for " euuuureka "!!!!. Looked around again. And then we were off to a lake side drive. That was beautiful as well. We yapped there for an hour and then left the place @ 5 am.

Ohhh i loved the peace in the air last night. It was so quite that you could actually hear the sound of the ripples in the lake and ya not to mention the breaze.
I love these meaniningless, random trips. And if i get to such a quite place to sit .... ohh it attaches a better boundary to such late nite excursions.

( i wish i had more time to stay @ the lake... ).

2008-06-27T09:51:00.002+05:30

"Into The wild "....

I saw this movie today ( dono how i missed it ). But how i feel and what i want say is better said thought these soundtracks ( OSTz of Into the Wild).

Its an awesome flick. U have to watch it to understand what i am saying.

Before you listen to the track here are the lyrics.

Long Nights : Eddie Vedder ( Pearl Jam's Vocalist )

Have no fear
For when I'm alone
I'll be better off than I was before

I've got this light
I'll be around to grow
Who I was before
I cannot recall

Long nights allow me to feel...
I'm falling...I am falling
The lights go out
Let me feel
I'm falling
I am falling safely to the ground
Ah...

I'll take this soul that's inside me now
Like a brand new friend
I'll forever know

I've got this light
And the will to show
I will always be better than before

Long nights allow me to feel...
I'm falling...I am falling
The lights go out
Let me feel
I'm falling
I am falling safely to the ground

No ceiling : Eddie Vedder

Comes the morning
When I can feel
That there's nothing left to be concealed
Moving on a scene surreal
No, my heart will never
Will never be far from here

Sure as I am breathing
Sure as I'm sad
I'll keep this wisdom in my flesh
I leave here believing more than I had
And there's a reason I'll be
A reason I'll be back

As I walk
The Hemisphere
*I've got* my wish
To up and disappear

*I've been* wounded
*I've been* healed
Now for landing *I've been*
Landing *I've been* cleared

Sure as I'm breathing
Sure as I'm sad
I'll keep this wisdom
In my flesh

I leave here believing
More than I had
This Love has got
No Ceiling

Vdoz :

Long Nights :

No ceiling :

2008-06-23T09:52:00.004+05:30

Fact File :

We all know " Pink Floyd" is a GOD band. But yesterday i found something new.
The life changing album of Floyd and a land mark in the history of rock and roll " the dark side of the moon" was doing badly in US. And it was an Indian who made it Platinum here in US.

watch this !!!!

And just in case you are interested in ... watching the complete show...

here is the link... u can navigate the all the parts from youtube. The first part is here :

2008-06-21T22:52:00.004+05:30

" I " - HOP ... yahh we hopped .. for abt 40 miles . !!!!!!

Last nite 5 of us went out for a movie " get smart " . We were late so we had to kill are desire to eat early and do some stuff later. It was 12:30 am when the movie got over.
At that time IHOP ( International House of Pancakes ) was the best option we had. And believe me our stomachs were growling hard for that awesome " chicken Fajita omelette " and the super soft pancakes they serve.
So we fed our classy Honda GPS the location of the IHOP which has the best service here. But like any other hifi gadjet it failed to show up the results. In the end we went to the nearest IHOP, which was about 7 miles away from where we were. When we rached there it was all full. 20 out of 22 tables were occupied.
We had to leave for the IHOP we had planed to visit earlier. Luckily we now got it on the GPS. It was 12 miles from that place.
Our bad luck contiued .. we reached there and it was closed. Dammmm
it was now 1: 30 am.
We tried for the third IHOP which was again ... 12-13 miles drive. And we all drove 13 miles for nothing. We couldnt find any " IHOP " there. Marred by luck, we decided to go back to the packed IHOP. And it was againg 13 miles from that place. ( talk about how lucky 13 is ).

In the end we had our dinner @ 2:30 am. But it was worth waiting. We came home around 4 am.
And the 7 hr nap was just what the doc ordered.

That sums up my Hopping dinener ... @ IHOP.

PS : the late nite drive reminded me of my undergrad days in India. Coffee @ 1am in Guffaa and the tea and poha @ 3 am in shankarnagar. I miss those days.

2008-06-20T19:55:00.002+05:30

Two songs i listen a lot these days !!!

Everything For Free:

Not And Addict:

2008-06-17T08:04:00.004+05:30

My Movie list for this year !!!!!

* : interesting but shouldn't be that a gr8 flick ( could watch it )

* * : will watch if i get time and company

* * * : ohh " i'll watch this one "

* * * * : people no way i am missing this one .... and you go watch it as well.

1) Mongol * * * *
2) Wanted * * *
3) Twilight * * *
4) Kicking It * * * *
5) Babylon A.D. * *
6) BOY A * * * *
7) Righteous Kill * * *
8)Mummy: Tomb of the Dragon Emp. * * * *
9) The Promotion *
10) Dark Knight * *
11) Hancock * * *
12) Bloodline * * * *
13) Tropic Thunder *
14) Journey to the center of the earth *
15) Noise * *
16) Hellboy 2 ***

2008-06-11T04:24:00.007+05:30

Camera Lens Vs. Sky diving !!!!!!!!!!!!

Its summer now and i plan to go on long drives. And if i go places i will do photography, its kind of a hobby and besides i love it.
Last semester bought a cam Sony DSC H7 ( a hybrid cam or lets say it almost matches the lower end DSLRz). I was actually saving money for Canon Rebel XTi, but my patience gave up and had to buy this one. It works fine, though if i have went along with what my instincts said i would have ended up buying Canon S5 IS, which i now realize would have been a better choice. Though there is hardly any difference in them.
When i was done with all my save money it was now time to move to the next level. I started saving money for a sky dive. This has been my dream since i don't know when. I ended up saving around 200 $ for it.
I was about to plan a trip to the Long Island for the sky dive, i found out that Sony has two converter lenses for my DSC H7. Now how in the world can i resist trying those. I ended up buying those to lenses with money that i had saved for my " FREE FALL " adventure.

The lenses are awesome no doubt. I once had a thought flash of sending those two back and keep the money for sky dive, but my love for photography won over my " free fall " dream.

But i know i'll some how manage to get the Sky dive done this summer only after all, 10 sec in heaven... who would want to miss that.

2008-06-10T21:39:00.004+05:30

Killer Apps !!!!!

Apple yesterday announced the launch of new iphone 3G. iPhone says a lot about itself and with that 3G in it is like another feather in the hat.
What makes it even more special are the new awesome Apps ( applications ).
These apps include games, remote desktop browsing, friend locater ( shows the location of a friend on a map) and many more interesting apps.

Out of these i found the " Mobile me" and " loopt " most interesting and useful.
Mobile me stores all the information about you and your contacts which are on your MAC or PC ( including your mail and files on you desktop ) in a remote server " Cloud " from where you can access all the information from anywhere in the world though your iPhone. And any change that you make on your PC/ MAC or iPhone will be reflected back/saved in all the devices that are connected to your mobile me account.

Cool !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Loopt is a social networking app. that basically locates your friend and displays his/her current location on a map.

Niceeeee !!!!!!!

There are many other apps. Look them up .. !!!

2008-06-10T07:20:00.004+05:30

iPhone 3G !!!!!!!!!!!

Its here !!!!!
Today at Moscone Center West in San Francisco, California Apple announced the much awaited " iPhone 3G ". Well by now everybody knows its heavily loaded with new gr8 apps, GPS and all that stuff. What was a shocker was its price, a dirt cheap ( when compared with other 3g PDA type cells ) $ 199 .

I guess Steve Jobs wants the whole dam world to use only iPhone.
You will hear the kids say " I want iPhone and nothing but iPhone ". In my opinion Mr. Jobs and apple finance handlers didnt realize that its gonna a nightmare for the parents to keep the rope tight on their kids.

It has almost everything with that people wanted in that apple product, but still its not upto that mark. Take the GPS for instance its an " Assisted GPS " not the kind of GPS we have in our cars.
I guess apple left it for the future, just to keep them busy with iPhone. The apple people like creating a buzz about there expected products. With the " assisted GPS " they want the people to keep flooding there blogs/forums etc with rumors about the next iPhone ( iPhone 3G x lets say ).

Anyways enough said I think i should buy it. The black one of course.

Apple iPhone 3G launch:

2008-06-09T06:08:00.006+05:30

Boondock Saints .. ( Explicit Content .. viewers digression is advised :P )

This one in my opinion provides the best possible solution to reduce the the crime rate. Some might digress with this view of mine but if one need justification i say watch the movie and listen to what people say towards the end ( during the casting). If you are still not convinced i say you have a blind faith in the egregiously corrupted judiciary of ours.

The movie is about two brothers who fight for the good of the society, and by fight i mean they pulverize the "bad" people.

Its not "that" a great movie in terms of direction and picturization but what sets this flick apart are the dialogs. Its a mix of the Irish , American , Italian and Russian accents. One more plus point are the hymns. The two main characters chant a prayer before they announce there judgment.. which believe me is awesome. Its not something that one would call "music to my ears" when you listen to it carefully, as the contents are not that pleasing. But what's in that hymn is a fact. " A bitter truth".

And ya last but not the least the use of the " F " word is like somebody had a verbal diarrhea of the " F " word. There is a a scene where a guy uses the " F " word in every grammatical way he knew. Imagine after hearing this what would the other guy standing with him must have said ....

Guess ????????.............

" Now that describes the diversity of the word ". :P

Its an old flick. But one should watch it.

Here is the stretched version of the prayer which the two main actors say:

"Now you will receive us.
We do not ask for your poor, or your hungry.
We do not want your tired and sick.
It is your corrupt we claim.
It is your evil that will be sought by us.
With every breath we shall hunt them down.
Each day, we will spill their blood till it rains down from the skies.
Do not kill, do not rape, do not steal, these are principles which every man of every faith can embrace.
These are not polite suggestions, these are codes of behavior and those of you that ignore them will pay the dearest cost.
There are varying degrees of evil, we urge you lesser forms of filth not to push the bounds and cross over, into true corruption, into For if you do, one day you will look behind you and you will see we three. And on that day, you will reap it.
And we will send you to whatever god you wish.
And shepherds we shall be, for Thee, my Lord, for Thee. Power hath descended forth from Thy hand, that our feet may swiftly carry out Thy command. So we shall flow a river forth to Thee, and teeming with souls shall it ever be.

In nomine Patri.
Et Fili.
Spiritus Sancti."

2008-06-08T05:00:00.008+05:30

some vdoz !!!

2008-06-08T04:57:00.000+05:30

Its about time i added .... Russell Peters here...

2008-06-08T04:53:00.002+05:30

Awesome Add by Apple :

Ohh yes they are different...

2008-06-08T04:25:00.002+05:30

Classic Rock part 3 :P ......

*) my super fav .... :P

Oh where! oh where! can my baby be
The lord took her away from me..
She's gone to heaven so I've got to be good
So I can see my baby when I leave this world..

'Last Kiss' : Pearl Jam

*) leap of faith (the Boss)

It takes a leap of faith to get things going
It takes a leap of faith you gotta show some guts
It takes a leap of faith to get things going
In your heart you must trust
*) I know its everybody’s sin
You got to lose to know how to win

Half my life is in books written pages
Live and learn from fools and from sages
You know its true
All the things you do
Come back to you

Dream On - Aerosmith

*) "It's always been about melody. But melody and I met in many depraved situations"
- Pete Doherty

*)"I'd rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not." ~ KURT COBAIN

*) People are strange when you're a stranger
Faces look ugly when you're alone
Women seem wicked when you're unwanted
Streets are uneven when you're down
When you're strange
Faces come out of the rain
When you're strange
No one remembers your name
When you're strange

JIM MORRISON _ THE DOORS

*)

elvis

Wise men say only fools rush in
But I cant help falling in love with you
Shall I stay
Would it be a sin
If I cant help falling in love with you

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
Some things are meant to be
Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I cant help falling in love with you

*) my fav...

Take me disappearin' through the smoke rings of my mind,
Down the foggy ruins of time,
Far past the frozen leaves,
The haunted, frightened trees,
Out to the windy beach,
Far from the twisted reach of crazy sorrow.
Yes, to dance beneath the diamond sky with one hand waving free,
Silhouetted by the sea,
Circled by the circus sands,
With all memory and fate driven deep beneath the waves,
Let me forget about today until tomorrow.

- Tamborine Man - Bob Dylan

*) 'I know my problems are meaningless but that don't make them go away' - On the Beach, N

*) 'My biggest fear is if I let you go
You'll come and get me in my sleep' - the saddest song, morphine

*) Get your motor runnin'
Head out on the highway
Lookin' for adventure
And whatever comes our way
Yeah Darlin' go make it happen
Take the world in a love embrace
Fire all of your guns at once
And explode into space

Born to be wild-Steppenwolf

*) Im the half-truth in the lie
Im the why not in the why
Im the last roll of the die
Im the old school in the tie
Im the spirit in the sky
Im the catcher in the rye
Im the twinkle in her eye
Im the jeff goldblum in the fly

Who am i?

Gin Soaked Boy - Divine Comedy.

*)I was looking for a job, now i found a job
and Heaven Knows Im Miserable Now
- The Smitholas

*) All alone, or in two's,
The ones who really love you
Walk up and down outside the wall.

Some hand in hand
And some gathered together in bands.
The bleeding hearts and artists
Make their stand.

And when they've given you their all
Some stagger and fall, after all it's not easy
Banging your heart against some mad bugger's wall.

Outside the wall : Pink Floyd

*) my fav..

life sucks....in a beautiful sort of way
wat i thought as beautiful was only memories
vicarious existence is a fucking waste of time
i know its hard to imagine that the one u love can hurt u now,
but hey everyone darlin everyone sometimes bite the hand that feeds

:axl rose

*) Looking through this point of view
There's no way I'm gonna fit in
Don't ya tell me what my eyes see
Don't ya tell me who to believe in
I ain't superstitious
But I know when somethin's wrong
I've been draggin' my heels
With a bitch called hope
Let the undercurrent drag me along .. : by " dont rem"

*) Realms of bliss, realms of light
Some are born to sweet delight
Some are born to sweet delight
Some are born to the endless night

end of the night - the doors

*) epitaph...king crimson

Between the iron gates of fate,
The seeds of time were sown,
And watered by the deeds of those
Who know and who are known

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2008-06-08T03:51:00.003+05:30

Classic Rock ...... !!! ( cont)

*)"Don't ask me what I think of you
I might not give the answer that you want me to"

- Peter Green , "Oh Well"

**) my fav ....

“They say there's a heaven for those who will wait. Some say it's better, but I say it ain't. I'd rather laugh with the sinners than cry with the saints. Sinners are much more fun...”

billy joel (only the good die young)

*) They are sharing a drink called loneliness, but it's better than drinking alone - Billy Joel

*)It's better to burn out than fade away - Kurt Cobain/Neil Young

*) strangers passing in the street,
by chance two separate glances meet
i am you and what i see is me...

echoes by Pink FLOYD

*) Well, I woke up this morning
And I got myself a beer.

The future's uncertain
And the end is always near.

----Jim Morrison

*) all the truth in the world adds up to one big lie"
(things have changed - bob dylan)

*) Brilliant Disguise - Bruce Springsteen

So Tell Me What I See
When I Look In Your Eyes
Is That You Baby
Or Just A Brilliant Disguise

*) When A Blind Man Cries - Deep Purple

If you're leaving, close the door.
I'm not expecting people anymore.
Hear me grieving, I'm lying on the floor.
Whether I'm drunk or dead I really aint too sure.
I'm a blind man, I'm a blind man and my world is pale.
When a blind man cries, lord, you know there aint no sadder tale....

*)

battle rages on-deep purple

Was it love or hate that got here first
Hate’s a habit it’s hard to shake the curse
Kill to live and live to die
Human nature you let the strong survive
Oh don’t talk to me of love
Be serious it’s not enough
Annihilation kill them all
Capitulation watch the mighty fall
The road to glory is lined in red
And though the reason now is gone
The battle rages on

*) "Maybe people only ask you how you're doing
'cause that's easier than letting on
how little they care"
- Jackson Browne, "The late show"

*)"Is justice Just Ice?
Governed by greed and lust?
With the strong doing what they do
and the weak suffering what they must?"
- Joni Mitchell , "Sex kills"

*) my fav....

"Everybody knows the dice are loaded
Everybody rolls with their fingers crossed
Everybody knows the war is over
Everybody knows the good guys lost
Everybody knows the fight was fixed
The poor stay poor, the rich get rich
That's how it goes, Everybody knows"
- Leonard Cohen, "Everybody knows"

*) my fav....

Where do bad folks go when they die?
They dont go to heaven where the angels fly
They go down to the lake of fire and fry
Wont see them again till the fourth of july
I knew a lady who came from duluth
She got bit by a dog with a rabid tooth
She went to her grave just a little too soon
And she flew away howling on the yellow moon
Now the people cry and the people moan
And they look for a dry place to call their home
And try to find some place to rest their bones
While the angels and the devils
Fight to claim them for their own

-Kurt Cobain

*) "Dear God, sorry to disturb you but
I feel that I should be heard loud and clear
We all need a big reduction in amount of tears
And all the people you made in your image
See them fighting in the street
'Cause they can't make opinions meet
About God"

- Andy Partridge (XTC), "Dear God"

*) She looked at him and he felt a spark tingle to his bones.
'Twas then he felt alone and wished that he'd gone straight
........
He told himself he didn't care, pushed the window open wide,
Felt an emptiness inside to which he just could not relate
........
Maybe she'll pick him out again, how long must he wait
Once more for a simple twist of fate.

- Bob Dylan (Simple Twist of Fate)

*)
I kept the right ones out
And let the wrong ones in
Had an angel of mercy to see me through all my sins
There were times in my life
When I was goin' insane
Tryin to walk through
The pain
When I lost my grip
And I hit the floor
Yeah, I thought I could leave, but couldn't get out
the door
I was so sick and tired
Of livin' a lie
I was wishin that I
Would die

Amazing - Aerosmith

2008-06-08T03:24:00.004+05:30

Classic Rock ..... !!!

Let there be light and there was light, let there be guitars and there were guitars, let there be drums and there were drums and let there be sound and there was sound.
"Oh, let there be rock!"
It was now time for the Gods to sing.

Music has an influence on all. And some of the most influential band and artists of all times chose the " Rock " style to do so.
Here are few lines from some of there best compositions.
( one liners / paraz )

*) Nobody gonna take my car
Im gonna race it to the ground
Nobody gonna beat my car
Its gonna break the speed of sound
Oooh its a killing machine
Its got everything
Like a driving power big fat tyres
And everything

I love it and I need it
I bleed it yeah its a wild hurricane
Alright hold tight
Im a highway star

*) "My hands are tied, my body bruised...she got me with nothing to win and nothing left to loose." - U2

*) We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl,
year after year,
running over the same old ground. What have we found?
The same old fears.... : Pink Floyd

*) "you live you learn
you love you learn
you cry you learn
you lose you learn
you bleed you learn
you scream you learn

you grieve you learn
you choke you learn
you laugh you learn
you choose you learn
you pray you learn
you ask you learn
you live you learn"

(alanis morissette - you learn

*) "You may say i'm a dreamer but i'm not the only one": Lennon (imagine)

*) "I know I didn't need to, but I just said...
THAT MY GOD WOKE UP ON THE WRONG SIDE OF HIS BED..
and it just don't matter now..."

--Little by Little, OASIS.

*) The stones- Paint it black

With flowers and my love both never to come back
I see people turn their heads and quickly look away
Like a new born baby it just happens evry day

Though I like the spun version floating arround the net,

With crosses and my love never to turn back,
Most people turn their heads and quickly look away,
Like a stillborn baby their all dead anyway

*) I was spending my time in the doldrums
I was caught in a cauldron of hate
I felt persecuted and paralysed
I thought that everything else would just wait

While you are wasting your time on your enemies
Engulfed in a fever of spite
Beyond your tunnel vision reality fades
Like shadows into the night

To martyr yourself to caution
Is not going to help at all
because ther'll be no safety in numbers
When the right one walks out of the door

Can you see your days blighted by darkness?
Is it true you beat your fists on the floor?
Stuck in a world of isolation
While the ivy grows over the door

So I open my door to my enemies
And I ask could we wipe the slate clean
But they tell me to please go fuck myself
You know you just can't win

---Lost for Words - Pink Floyd

2008-06-04T23:57:00.004+05:30

Am I a Cold Person .......

I wonder whether its a Q or a fact that i keep denying. I still dont know.
I hope its not true or it remains a Q. The fact is really dont want to know.

I have seen people die ( v. close ones).
Many of them died in front of me and as far as i remember i got emotional ( if that's what crying means) in not more than 2-3 of them.

Most of the people WILL address me as STONE COLD after reading this ( some might say hey " you are strong" ... and again .. " i dont know "!!! what i am ).
But the fact is i do feel the greif/pain deep inside now matter how emotionally aloof i was from that person.

I remember, one of my very close friends died 3 years back. And i know what it felt like, and believe me i cried even more that a newly born baby would. The pain of his loss was more than a stab in heart.

Recently two of my very close relatives died, and their deaths only came to me as a shock. ( keeping aside the sorrow/grief part).

So .. " Stone Hearted " i am .... right.

I dont know what i am. And as i say " i am not the best judge".
People who know me they say and they feel i am not " COLD" ... but sometimes do feel that i belong to that category of people who are indifferent and unsesetive.

I guess .... it is a Q.

"Am I a Cold Person ??".

2008-06-04T18:52:00.004+05:30

RD ....

I found this on some random page on the internet... its funny 'cause it actually describes how erred Microsoft products are... :P

" There was once a young man who, in his youth, professed a desire to become a "great" writer. When asked to define great, he said: "I want to write stuff that the whole world will read, stuff that people will react to on a truly emotional level, stuff that will make them scream, cry, wail, howl in pain, desperation and anger!"

He now works for Microsoft writing error messages."

2008-06-01T07:12:00.006+05:30

10 Weirdest Things Ever Sold On eBay !!!

Perhaps you've heard stories of people auctioning off strange items on eBay, like the homely kid who put his virginity up for bid or the bald guys who offer their own heads as advertising space. But those are nothing compared to some of the items that have made their way onto eBay's digital auction block.

Here are ten of the weirdest things ever to appear on eBay. To qualify for this list, the item or items must have received at least one bid, proving the point that no matter what you have to sell, somewhere there is a buyer for it.

10. Item #191367029: The Internet

If people can sell plots of land on the moon, then why can't someone sell the Internet? Someone did just that, for the bargain asking price of $1 million. Of course, it was all just a gag and it's unlikely that this Pay Pal transaction ever went through. But still, it would have been the deal of the century-the buyer was even throwing in free Internet access.

9. Item #277481422: UFO Detector

A prototype manufactured by a Brazilian company, this modified magnetometer is supposed to pick up UFO activity and was proven to work when red and orange balls of light appeared in the skies over Sao Paulo. Unfortunately, it wasn't 100% guaranteed due to the fact that "the propulsion systems of UFOs are not the same." Why would the seller want to part with such a unique item? It's okay-he had two. Final sale price: $135.03.

8. Item #248619068: The Meaning of Life

Someone finally figured it out, and they put it up for sale on eBay. Even with eight bids this incredible find didn't fetch much, but it was probably the best $3.26 the winning bidder ever spent.

7. Item #1178647016: Russian Test Space Shuttle

This one-of-a-kind item was once offered by a Russian company for $2 million, but was posted on eBay for "a fraction of that." It's not known how much they wanted for the scaled-down Bor-5 VKK spacecraft, because the reserve price was never reached. Bidding topped out at $25,200, but perhaps it was the $5,000 shipping price that scared off potential buyers.

6. Item #2961640885: Vampire Killing Kit

The stylish vampire hunter would love this late 1800s European "vampire killing kit," which included a crossbow with four silver-tipped arrows, an ebony wood stake, a large bottle of holy water and various surgical instruments, among other things. A solid mahogany wood box kept the items secure until they would be needed. Final bid: $4,550.

5. Item #289158639: Real Shrunken Head

Straight from the Jivaro Indian tribe in the jungles of Ecuador to the world's largest electronic marketplace, a total of 26 shrunken heads were put up for sale. Only 7 people bid on them, with the top bidder paying just under $25. It is assumed that he or she got first choice of the heads, which ranged in color from dark brown to gray.

4. Item #2931457201: Ghost In a Jar

As the story goes, the seller of this item found a rotted wooden box while metal detecting. Inside were two glass jars and a journal. One of the jars was accidentally dropped, causing a black mist of some sort to be released. The other jar and the journal were taken home, and the seller proceeded to be haunted by something he could only describe as "The Black Thing."

Wishing to pass the jar (and the ghost) on to someone else, he put the still unopened jar on eBay, insisting that only serious bidders would be considered. People must have loved the story, because there were well over 60 bids placed.

Unfortunately, not all of them were serious, because the selling price topped $90 million. No word as to who finally wound up with the jar, or if they too had supernatural visitors. Since this auction, there have been many, many more "ghost in a jar" items posted on eBay.

3. Item #150118191: USAF Hughes AIM-4D Falcon Missile

Yes, a real missile was auctioned off; fortunately, it was disarmed prior to the sale. The bidding reached $3,950, but the reserve price was never met.

2. Item #127658711: Serial Killer's Fingernails

In 1979, Lawrence Bittaker and Roy Norris cruised southern California on a killing spree that resulted in at least five victims. And now, the fingernails of Roy Norris have been sold on eBay for only $9.99.

Taped to the back of a Christmas card, they were accompanied by a penned note from Norris himself, signed and topped off with the serial killer's black thumbprint.

1. Item number not known: "Stricken Life" Painting

A rather macabre-looking self-portrait of a man known only as "Harold," this painting is believed to be haunted. The artist was diagnosed with terminal brain cancer in early 2001. Knowing that he could no longer care for his Multiple Sclerosis-stricken wife, he put a double-barrel shotgun against her head while she was sleeping and squeezed the trigger.

He then went into the den and put the shotgun in his own mouth. The house where the murder-suicide took place was eventually sold, and the new owners found the painting. Strange things started happening, such as the family dog sitting in front of the painting and howling, so Harold had to go -- on eBay, of course.

2008-05-30T22:31:00.004+05:30

Has anything changed ????

This is going to be short one.
Has anything changed for me after coming to US? I answer would be " NO " !!!.
Nothing has changed. It's the same old story going in recursion.

I guess i like making my life difficult. The funny thing is i do it unintentionally. I know that ..
" this would do wrong to me... this wont help me.. this would just mess things up". But "old habits die hard" !!!. I just do things i shouldn't do.

I keep making mistakes till i reach a point of no return. It becomes a do or die situation for me.
And i have been in this situation many times.
But in the end i somehow manage to come out or rather push myself out.

I would certainly want this trend to end. I know would have been in a lot better place and situation I am in had i done things the right way.

OR "if i could just turn back time ..... "

2008-05-30T06:39:00.004+05:30

Its Been a while ... !!!!!

For those who only read the title ... this is not a Staind song. Its just that its been long since i last blogged. My last blog was deleted by google 'cause i didnt scribble for about and yr. ( though i had never known that google would do such a thing, till that day when the login screen said something like "account doesn't exist" :( . It was my long hard work of 4 years. ) . So am here today back to the same old page ( well not that old as this is my new blog ) which says " My Crypt-x". The blog which has things about me which my old blog was deprived of. The blog which has shit written everywhere else :P .

After all i couldn't have given google another chance to delete this one as well.

Anyways many of my old blog readers and old friends would as me....
" where have you been ??? " .. (in context of my blog). well the answer to that is a series of points... here :

*) i have been studying .. or rather i try to study. which take a hell lot of my time.
*) i have been going places ... which take more of my money than time. and since time is money and money is time .. ( aaaa whatever.. u get the point ).
*) i have been working .. which excludes the study part.
*) i do some other stuff ... etc etc etc.

well there are more things to put in there but...

so i hardly got time to .. jot down things about... "things".

But i guess its time, i started making up for the lost time.

Keep reading ............

:)

2007-07-10T17:37:00.000+05:30

THE " HOLE YYYYYY " BODY :) ..... SO lets play GOLF !!!!!!!!!

my body is now a golf course. Y???. scroll drown.....

i just got admitted in Syracuse Univ. for and a MS course in Electrical Eng. As per the rule book of the univ. i have to go through a series of test , which would determine my present state of health and would also reveal any diseases am carrying.

( American fear Indians i guess.... they consider us a bio hazardous material. well am not sure abt bio hazardous material ..but ya we sure are BIO- "LOGICAL" war HEADS. so obvious this is we are in every sector of US's economy ( and related fields) ... on which US thrives . )

back to the medical tests.

so get all these test done i went to the hospital. now i had to get to the "pathology lab" ( a lab where all the blood , human tissue .... etc tests are done)
when i rchd the lab i told the lap assistant what all test are to be done.
my list had 8 test. he asked me what purpose ... were these tets 4. i told him all the US of A story. he advised me 2 more so i said fine do that.
he then told his junior to take the blood sample.

i then took a chair .. they guy came with a syringe, strapped my biceps. now the needle was in... this is where the game started ......

he first pushed the needle in ... something happened the ..needle deviated and went some where else. ohhhhhh sorry sorry !!! he said.. he explained what had happened.. and the second time he hit the bull's eye.
while the my precious blood was rushing into the syringe ... some thing went wrong with the syringe .. it as half full by then . they guy took it out ..and said.. "i'll be puting one more needle in .. something is wrong with this one..... " ... fine i said.
after a gap of 15min.. when my blood stopped ... he put another needle in . this wroked fine. ( but !!!! but !!! ... SSED [ same shit everyday ].. has to play its role ). the amt of blood he needed was beyond the syringe's limit. so again after 15 min .. i got ready 4 another excavation.!!!!!
another needle dug in.. !!!!!!! a 20 ml syringe.... niceeeeeeeeee. ohhh my precious blood :((. by gods grace this worked fine as well. the blood guy must be saying in his mind Euuuureeekkaaaaaa !!!!!!!.
then i got ready for a vaccine... this did well. over in a single prick.

5 picks 2 day. have few more in Q .... so by the end of this month ... my body will be a complete " Golf Course ". with 18 tiny holes or more. huh !!!!!

what a day !!!!!!!!.... am loving it !!!!!!!

2007-07-04T21:20:00.000+05:30

Random thoughts :

u can rename the following lines as...... weird expressions , philosophy, ones own perspective, wrds of an upset mind , whatever... these are facts/gospel truth / my exp.

**
we ask ourselves what do fear the most?
we get varied and diversified answers. but still there r few points that are common.
such as "God", "Death", " animals", "humans :)", "heights"... etc.
i pick one of these ...."Death".
i say y do we fear death? its inevitable . wounds r the things that give u cold feet. ( be it psychological wound, physical wound.. ny kind). they prick u more that death .

imagine what all u miss just cos of this "fear of death"... things u love or rather would love doing are so on halt/jailed just cos therez a risk of dying.
but we dont realize that not many ppl are born with that fate. a fate of dying while doing something u love the most .

someone said " if arnt living on the edge u r waisting space". so true this is.
am not saying that we all can throw the whole lot of "fear" inside us away..... but we can @lst control it .

ppl might say after reading this that its all so easy to say ( easier said that done !!) . am aware of that ... but.. as i said it all abt perspective ...

weird ... think !!! what life u want to live , "fear" or "fun"... they both never come in the same package !!!.

**
" Life is beautiful "... this line u'll see in thousand of orkut profiles.
is life really "beautiful". well as per my exp., it not. rather its a "real illusion".
for those it is, they r just loitering ard the boundaries, where they find everything they pine and live for. its then when u cross the boundaries u get the real taste. life was never meant to be easy. its a complex design which is far beyond any man's comprehension. it just looks beautiful from the outside. and... we know "all that glitters is not gold". !!! :)

a quote in a movie said :

facing a loaded gun and facing life is one and the same thing.. there ant ny diff !!!

**
the golden rule " never give advices "..... ppl ask for it, anmd in tern u get 2 hr names !!

or u want to somebody's "bhala". .. u give a just advice. he/she doesn't take it. u try 2 explain one more time.... no use !!!!. and when things go buurrrrrrrr !!!! nuty kinds. the same person say..... " u must have done this". u try to explain again, then u feel like.. u r standing rite next to "sun".

let me rephrase that:

there r 2 dogs. hu r really starving . u have "parle G" biscuits . they come ard u wagging their tails and with all the SLURPPPPP yyy!!!! look. u give them the biscuit. they didnt like it and give a look like " should we go 4 few more... as we dont have ny thing else ard to eat ".
the then dec. not to gulp in ny more.
but then after a while u see that these 2 dogs are after u...and would rip u off , if they get a hold on u. the reason ...................... listen to what they dogs were saying ..

we r almost dead/ starving to death... y didnt u give us more? ... even if we ref. u should have stuffed it in2 us.!!!!!!

the end

woooof wooof .

**
therez one thing i can never trust is the wrd "trust" !!!!!
look ard all u hr and see is " infidelity" . its like use and throw. hu cares abt feelings these days.
whats worst.... ppl keeep back ups. just in case this doesnt wrk out i have the other guy/grl that i can go arn with.
talk abt "computer age .....".

2007-07-04T18:46:00.000+05:30

Eating out my days ...... ( Gulp Gulp Gulp ..!!!!!!)

well the title translates like ... am wasting my time these days..nahhh trust me have that my whole life !!! .
so try to read between the lines..... u'll c " i eat all day long" !!!!!!

seriously i eat eat and only eat .....

ppl want me 2 take cooking classes.. .. i say ok... i'll "y" dish 2day u make it .. i'll learn it....
plain and simple. All i do is day dream then and pretend that the dish is in my head on in my stomach aka "paapi peth" . the dish gets it last rites in my stomach. ... and walllllaaaaahhhhhh, the cookery class is done.
i kinda bunk the class and slip in a proxy .

things i get 2 eat these days:

*) Aam papad ( amaawat/ sun dried mango) --- made in thailand ... imagine !!!!
*) lindt and heyshey's chocolates
*) baby corn dishes
*) usual daal chawal.
*) chat ..
etc etc....

SLURPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NOTE: dont stay on this page ...2 long ... i dont want c patches of saliva ( slimy ones ) here !!!!!!
( filthy na i know.... cant help it )

2007-03-31T22:56:00.000+05:30

SOOD SAHAAB >>>>> TO >>>>> SOOD SIR !!!! SOOD SIR!!!!
( cont. )

sood sir !!!! sood sir !!!! also spends time with "RONIT" and his "PROJECT" mates .

sood sir !!!! sood sir !!!! is very serious about his "PROJECT" these days.
u ask him anything his reply is "PROJECT". For him every Q. has one answer .....i.e. "PROJECT".

2007-03-25T11:22:00.000+05:30

SOOD SAHAAB >>>>> TO >>>>> SOOD SIR !!!! SOOD SIR!!!!

Sood sahaab has changed. These are the following changes I marked :

1) sood sahaab aka: sood “the studdd” is now SOOD SIR!!!!! SOOD SIR!!!!!

Sood sahaab( in this year’s college fest “JIGYASA”) is now addressed as SOOD SIR!!! SOOD SIR!!!

*** courtesy : PCEA grls..

Sood sir!!!!! Sood sir !!!!! aapko meri team treat degi…. please help us.

2) Arpit Sood is now “C.E.O” Arpit Sood.

Sood sir!!!! Sood sir!!!! …… recently won third prize in a C.E.O hunt comp.

3) Sood Sir Sood Sir !!!!! is now a matured and boring “Road Romeo”.

4) Sood Sir !!!!! Sood Sir!!!! used to read Delhi Times in his younger days , but now he blends his mind with news letters from “the Economic Times”.

5) Sood Sir!!!! Sood Sir!!!! these days enjoys his bed more than roads of Ngp.

In short Sood Sir Sood Sir !!!!! is hell boring these days……..but still grls are go mad 4 him.

2007-03-23T10:30:00.000+05:30

I AM NOT A RACIST BUT STILL.........................

I studied 4 long years in Nagpur . so whenever I had an off I used to come to Varanasi ( my home town). The Indian Railways used to be my only help. I never had the luxury of using airways as there were no flights between Nagpur and Varanasi.

Well people say that when you travel you meet people of different casts and religion.

You meet all kinds. Rich, poor, handicapped, …scores of people you meet. But after shuttling about 2 dozen times from Nagpur to Varanasi, I feel there is only one kind u meet.

The glamorous “South Indians”.

South Indians are intelligent : no second thoughts on this issue. But they stand tall on the acme of one list as well i.e. “ world’s most messiest people”.

They eat as if they are hungry for years. They speak like a person who is caned to utter with his/her tongue and both the lips stretched side ways. For them train’s pantry is useless. They travel with 2-3 ( 3 lit) containers, full of rice.

I know south Indians are good @ English. I found this true ONLY when the talk to a fellow south Indian.

Yesterdays I was on my way to varanasi from nagpur. As usual I found a big south Indian family companying me to varanasi. All day long they were bust doing “ ayyyyiiiooooo’s” , “illllllleaaaaa”……and many more “iooooz” & “aaaaaz”.

It was 4:30 in the morning, varanasi was scheduled to arrive @ 4:50 am. I stepped down from the upper birth ,where I was trying do dive into my dreams 4 the pas 3 hrs. (‘cos they all were snoring in chorus.

(now I am introducing my inner self as : NARRATOR)

NARRATOR (when the snore melody was on) : do they practice this, must be their time pass.

ME: where are my shoes. God!!! these rice containers. ( my shoes were crushed underneath the rice containers).

A lady (member of the south Indian family wakes up).

LADY: what time?

NARRATOR: what ? is she sleep talking ? or is she talking to me? Who cares..

Ashish was busy getting his shoes back in shape.

LADY (again) : what time?

NARRATOR: What are you taking lady? Go to hell or sleep …or whatever.

ASHISH (responds) : sorry, I didn’t get you.

LADY: what time is it?

NARRATOR: ohhhhhhhhhhh u meant that …… niceeeeeeeee

ASHISH: Its 4:30.

LADY: where?

NARRATOR: lady why are you talking like kids… in monosyllables. “ GAAA GAAAA

GOOOO GOOOO GIIII GAAAA” types .

ASHISH: excuse me!!!!

LADY: Where are we?

NARRATOR: God!!!!!!!!!! are you drunk?

ASHISH: I don’t know but I guess varanasi is nearing. Let me chk.

LADY ( to her family) : aiyooooo VARANASI ……………bla bla bla

NARRATOR : I guess that meant varanasi is near …get up

(will tell u what it actually meant… look for this sign “**” below)

ASHISH (returns after a stroll from the main gate): the train is late by 2 hrs. u can relax

for now.

NARRATOR: he should have said u can carry on with your snoring game.

LADY: what time?

NARRATOR: ohhhh !!!! plzzzzzzz not again the "what" thing .... but wait ashish will get it right this

time.

ASHISH: hmmm I guess we should be there around 6:30 or 7:00.

LADY: hmmmmmm

Ashish goes back to his seat. Tries to sleep but he couldn’t because the family was laughing and talking ( yelling I should say) with their lungs pumped.

NARRATOR : ** now I get it . what that bla bla bla meant. “ hey family varanasi is

Off your beds you snoring creatures and ya don’t let anyone in this

cabin sleep either.

2007-01-15T23:58:00.000+05:30

Our Greatest Fear

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light , not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of god. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make and manifest the glory of god that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." -Marianne Williamson

2007-01-03T18:18:00.000+05:30

SAD HAM GRILLED!!!!

A few days back Mr. Saddam Hussein was hanged. a dictator "man"executed by a dictator "country". the following words will present my insight ....probing into his death.

Q) was Saddam's execution just?
A) this is hard to answer. a harsh punishment was expected and necessary for him.
yes his hanging was indeed just if one looks @ his "bloody" deeds. all this is well justified by the blood of the inocent ppl that he took in as RED WINE.
But if u look @ the manner in which he was hanged , then one realises that how biassed and flawed the judicial system is. had the trial been fair saddam would have got 6,7, may be 10 life sentences. but still no one can deny that fact that the "hanged till death" decision had more substance when the both "hang" and "life sentence" were being weighed. the influence of US on saddam's hanging was so great that even saddam's lawers ( 4 of them) had to give their lives to lessen the load. saddam was not even allowed to put any defending points in the court. and lastly he was hanged just b4 a festival. the "hang man" game should have been played after that festive day.

Q) What would you call Saddam?
a) "saheed" ( a patriot who dies for country's honour and pride )
b) just a dictator
c) phsyco killer

A) as for me (b) and (c). he was not at all a "saheed".
calling him "saheed" would be abusing many many patriots. he was a mentally sick. not even a childs death could melt his hard head and stoned heart.

Q) what would you do if u were to punish Mr. Saddam?
a) hang him
b) shoot him
c) sentence him for life

A) i'll shoot him and that to with a sniper.....aaaaannnnnnnd ..in the middle of his head.
that would make him feel how fast death sprints.

well i told him not to njoy playing "HANG MAN".

2006-12-26T23:48:00.000+05:30

Time slips &/or Natural Time Travel :

This is usually an experience which occurs in a full state of consciousness. The subject or subjects involved can be walking along when suddenly the environment about them will abruptly change and they begin seeing that particular location as it was at some point hundreds if not thousands of years ago. The transformation is immediate as if a trap door to another time dimension suddenly opens up to allow a glimpse of events long ago.

Time is a funny thing. There never seems to be enough -- yet there is an infinite amount. Time slips through moment upon second into eternity past; yet present, to begin the future.

Time is thought to be unstoppable in its relentless push towards the future. Humans perceive themselves as bound up in time as an insect in amber. Forever imprisoned and forced to reconcile with the regularity and inevitability of change. The past is gone -- the present, fleeting -- and the future is unknown. Or is it?

If a Merseyside policeman by the name of Frank was asked, he may have an entirely different opinion on the subject of time.

On a sunny Saturday afternoon in July of 1996, Frank and his wife, Carol was visiting Liverpool's Bold Street area for some shopping. At Central Station, the pair split up; Carol went to Dillons Bookshop and Frank went to HMV to look for a CD he wanted. As he walked up the incline near the Lyceum Post Office/Café building that lead onto Bold Street, Frank suddenly noticed he had entered a strange "oasis of quietness."

Suddenly, a small box van that looked like something out of the 1950s sped across his path, honking its horn as it narrowly missed him. Frank noticed the name on the van's side: "Caplan's." When he looked down, the confused policeman saw that he was unexpectedly standing in the road. The off-duty policeman crossed the road and saw that Dillons Book Store now had "Cripps" over its entrances. More confused, he looked in to see not books, but women's handbags and shoes.

Looking around, Frank realized people were dressed in clothes that appeared to be from the 1940s. Suddenly, he spotted a young girl in her early 20's dressed in a lime-colored sleeveless top. The handbag she was carrying had a popular brand name on it, which reassured the policeman that maybe he was still partly in 1996. It was a paradox, but he was relieved, and he followed the girl into Cripps.

As the pair went inside, Frank watched in amazement as the interior of the building completely changed in a flash to that of Dillons Bookshop of 1996. The girl turned to leave and Frank lightly grasped the girl's arm to attract attention and said, "Did you see that?"

She replied, "Yeah! I thought it was a clothes shop. I was going to look around, but it's a bookshop."

It was later determined that Cripps and Caplan's were businesses based in Liverpool during the 1950s. Whether these businesses were based in the locations specified in the story has not been confirmed. 1

Frank's experience is not that unusual in the realm of strange phenomenon. There is even a name given to such events -- time slips.

A time slip is an event where it appears that some other era has briefly intruded on the present. A time slip seems to be spontaneous in nature and localization, but there are places on the planet that seem to be more prone than others to time slip events. As well, some people may be more inclined to experience time slips than others. If time then is the unmovable force that physicists say it is, why do some people have experiences that seem to flaunt this concept?

2006-12-08T23:29:00.000+05:30

100 Greatest Guitar Solos !!!!!!!

PPL I FOUND THIS ON A PAGE.......

Led Zeppelin - Stairway to Heaven
Van Halen - Eruption
Lynyrd Skynyrd - Freebird
Pink Floyd - Comfortably Numb
Jimi Hendrix - All Along the Watchtower
Guns N' Roses - November Rain
Metallica - One
Eagles - Hotel California
Black Sabbath - Crazy Train
Cream - Crossroads
jimi Hendrix - Voodoo Child (Slight Return)
Chuck Berry - Johnny B. Goode
Stevie Ray Vaughan - Texas Flood
Derek and the Dominos - Layla
Deep Purple - Highway Star
Led Zeppelin - Heartbreaker
Eric Johnson - Cliffs of Dover
Jimi Hendrix - Little Wing
Pantera - Floods
Queen - Bohemian Rhapsody
Pink Floyd - Time
Dire Straits - Sultans of Swing
Rage Against The Machine - Bulls on Parade
Metallica - Fade to Black
Jethro Tull - Aqualung
Nirvana - Smells Like Teen Spirit
Stevie Ray Vaughan - Pride and Joy
Ozzy Ozborne - Mr. Crowley
Steve Vai - For the Love of God
Joe Satriani - Surfing With the Alien
Ted Nugent - Stranglehold
Jimi Hendrix - Machine Gun
B.B King - The Thrill Is Gone
Radiohead - Paranoid Android
Pantera - Cemetery Gates
Yngwie Malmsteen - Black Star
Guns N' Roses - Sweet Child O' Mine
Led Zeppelin - Whole Lotta Love
Neil Young - Cortez the Killer
Steely Dan - Reelin' in the Years
Queen - Brighton Rock
Beatles - While My Guitar Gently Weeps
ZZ Top - Sharp Dressed Man
Pearl Jam - Alive
Doors - Light My Fire
Van Halen - Hot for Teacher
Allman Brothers Band - Jessica
Rolling Stones - Sympathy for the Devil
Santana - Europa
Kiss - Shock Me
Ozzie Ozborne - No More Tears
Jimi Hendrix - Star - Spangled Banner
Led Zeppelin - Since I've Been Loving You
Smashing Pumpkins - Geek USA
Joe Satriani - Satch Boogie
Black Sabbath - War Pigs
Pantera - Walk
Eric Clapton - Cocaine
Kinks - You Really Got Me
Frank Zappa - Zoot Allures
Metallica - Master of Puppets
Pink Floyd - Money
Red Hot Chili Peppers - Scar Tissue
Prince - Little Red Corvette
Allman Brothers - Blue Sky
Iron Maiden - The Number of the Beast
Michael Jackson feat. Eddie Van Halen - Beat It
Yes - Starship Trooper
Beatles - And Your Bird Can Sing
Jimi Hendrix - Purple Haze
Funkadelic - Maggot Brain
Aerosmith - Walk This Way
Phish - Stash
Deep Purple - Lazy
The Who - Won't Get Fooled Again
Neil Young - Cinnamon Girl
Alice In Chains - Man in the Box
Grateful Dead - Truckin'
Van Halen - Mean Street
AC - DC - You Shook Me All Night Long
The Velvet Underground - Sweet Jane
King Crimson - 21st Century Schizoid Man
Stevie Ray Vaughan - Scuttle Buttin'
UFO - Lights Out
David Bowie - Moonage Daydream
Allman Brothers Band - Whipping Post
Johnny Winter - Highway 61 Revisited
Steely Dan - Kid Charlemagne
Rage Against the Machine - Killing in the Name
Eric Clapton - Let It Rain
Creedence Clearwater Revival - Heard It Through the Grapevine
Stray Cats - Stray Cat Strut
The Doors - The End
Rush - Working Man
Pearl Jam - Yellow Ledbetter
Rolling Stones - Honky Tonk Woman
Judas Priest - Beyond the Realms of Death
Dream Theater - Under a Glass Moon
Jeff Beck - 'Cause We've Ended as Lovers
Bon Jovi - Wanted Dead or Alive

2006-12-07T17:00:00.000+05:30

AWESOME SOLO!!!!!!!!!

2006-11-26T23:51:00.000+05:30

"LICENCE TO KILLLLLLLL"............

well ladies/women are born killers. they are like counterpart of HITMAN ....."HITWOMEN" when they have that "BLOODY" thing called car ...in their hands. Have this for comparis.

" a car in a women's hand is as dangerous as a butcher with a knife ".....

THINGS THAT LADIES DO WHILE DRIVING:

look in the rear view mirrors , press their lips to adjust the lipstick, brush their eyebrows..and they perform every "butification" on themselves......."all this is done in place of watching the road".

talk on cell phones....abt stores, makeup, boyfrds, movie gossips...... "this is how they concentrate"

women dont have the concept of "brakes"..... for them there are only two pedals on the flr.

this is how they name the pedals:

LONG & HOT DOG SHAPED----( this is the accelerator)
SMALL & BISCUIT SHAPED----( this one is the clutch)

the other one is the break....but 2 them is jammed always.
if therez an obstruction...they just "blow horn"...they just dont use breaks.
and jab thok deti hai......tab they say ki horn to bajaya tha, ab aapne nahi suna to meri kya galti........ ( dummm heads).

if they never use indicators...they assume that the vehicle ard them will clr the road for them.... when they have to turn.
godddddddddddddd!!!!!!!!

when they have to make a turn they never ever look sideways ...they just ...drive straight.
(jab dekhna hota hai tab nahi dekhti ...jab nahi dekhan hota tab jaroor dekhngi).

2006-11-22T19:16:00.000+05:30

AFI - KISS MY EYES ( MISS MURDER PRELUDE)

niceeeeeeeeee!!!!!!

2006-11-19T01:32:00.000+05:30

MAN THESE ADVERTISING GUYS DO HAVE SHIT BRAINS

2006-11-15T22:41:00.000+05:30

" OHHHHHH SHIT" !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

punch on the face

2006-11-15T22:34:00.000+05:30

" MAHI VE" : MAUSAM by JOSH

this is one awesome song ....punjabi though.
the music is gr8 .

2006-11-14T22:21:00.000+05:30

GRE : ( GRADUATE RAPE EXAMINATION )

ppl please dont take it literally.
its just that these xamnations have really riped my head off. i'll brief u with the onslaught and aftermath of the one such xam GRE.

THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS DURING AND AFTER GRE......... if u screw it.

things that get ripped or torn or shredded or stripped

ur books
ur brains
ur hair ( baal nochne ke naubat aa jati hai)
ur back and neck ( if u sit for too long on ur chair and near ur comp.)

if u screw gre:

u get bald mentally and physically
u get frustrated
u become a senceless dog
u become a begger ( beg universities to give u admit)

conversation between ppl.....victims of the ripper (GRE):

Anonymous: plz tell me should i give gre again in dec or not........ wont it be late.

Kunal: dude mine is also in tht range. may i know who u r????

Mukul: me also in the same range..which uni's u gonna apply??

Anonymous: hey evn my gre score is 1070........toefl 243......i am frm electricals......
may i knw to which univs r ya ppl applying......?

Punit: same here ..i have also same score .. can u tell me ..which univ shld i apply!!

Anonymous: assholes muhje suggest karo mujsai kyu pooch rahe ho kuutoooo.

bechara Anonymous......... has my sympathy.

2006-11-14T00:11:00.000+05:30

MY FAV. SONGS

these are my fav. songs........

Coming back to life - Pink floyd
Comfortably Numb - Pink Floyd
Loosing my religion -REM
Beautiful - Lifehouse
Sad but true - Metallica
Behind blu eyes - The who
Hotel California(1976) - Eagles
Pal, Yaaroo- KK
Aaj bikhara hu mai - Jal
Winds of change - Scorpians
Last kiss - Pearl jam
Knocking on heavens doors - GNR & Avril
Here without you - 3 doors down
Twisted transitors - Korn
Where did u sleep last nite - Nirvana
Nib - Black sabbath
Hallowed be thy name - Iron maideN

2006-11-13T23:49:00.000+05:30

ASHISHz AGRAWAL ...RD cont.....

LAUGHTER THE BEST MEDICINE...

(click on the pic)

2006-11-13T23:46:00.000+05:30

ASHISHz .......... RD

LAUGHTER THE BEST MEDICINE :

2006-11-13T23:19:00.003+05:30

" BEING ASHISH AGRAWAL"

this is not my biography.but it could well turn out be its close relative.

Faces in the mirror.

FACE 1:
---------

a happy small kid. hu has everything that a boi could dream of (as a kid). has loving parents and family. njoys moving out, went to the most exciting and lavish destination in the country and beyond. lived out in a foreign land for a year. studies i the most reputed school of the city. i mean he has and he is seeing the the most rosy and gawdy face of life. he has all the traits that an agile, frantic & a menacing ( but not pampered) kid should have. but he is a bit shy and introvert. hez among the top 10-15 students in his class. this makes him feel quite secured, coz hez doing gr8 @ a thing that matters the most in his family. hez growing and watching the sands of time drop slowly. hez changing but everything in his life remains the same, as if they are in hibernation. nothing is now wrong with him except his temper. he just cannot control his temper. but still for him till now life was & is a bed of roses. he is smiling , giggling and njoing his stroll in life. so smooth his life is, no worries, no tension but just the stress of studies curves his forehead skin. .........
AAAAHHHHHH " KYA LIFE HAI"..........

END OF FACE 1

THE TRANSIT, THE FACEOFFF !!!!!!
---------------------------------------------------
the other face in the mirror...... whoz is it ?
the face disappears.......he now sits back but the face still haunts him.
that was the curve of life that was waiting to be discovered. but who was it.....?
some unspoken words said ... "this is how u will be for next few yrs of ur life".
it was the......
FACEOFFFFFF !!!!!!!!! .. with the new me.

FACE 2:
---------

so here he is looking at his marred face. marred by time, marred by dismay, marred by disgrace, marred by results and god knows what. where ever he went he found nothing but bad luck, humiliation etc etc. he tried to rectify all that went wrong but .... all in vain. the bads were too many to be conquered. he is trying to fix everything, he is trying hard to settle terms with his life. but he knows in his heart its all a waste of time. hez crying , praying ....but therez no one there to answer his laments. all his confidence is lost, he has now a lot more apprehensive than he was b4.
Worst ... hez cursing his very right to live and his birth.

time flies............

** things start to settle down, but the moment he starts to relax, his worst and the most horrendous fears come to life. these are short lived though. these are like impulses that give rise to excruciating pain.
he is now accustomed to all this......
all these morbid realities have hardened his soul.
** he has changed. Again !!!!!

FACE 3:
----------

** low in confidence, deprived of his dearest dream,...he is now in a place that will for the next one yr. will not show mercy. but still he is njoying life.....living his share of fun he left behind. he is learning ...learning to b more strong, more hard mentally.

** he knows that this is not the life he wanted for himself but he cant help it. he feels that hez in a wrong place .....but this is destiny. he has accepted it.
all was fine but suddenly something happens and he goes off his track. he wants to step back..but he cannot.
** a month passes......and hez back on his way...
and since then its been a joy ride............

** its all fine now......
but the Q is till when?

its always a bumpy ride when you in sea and storms are always around the corner.

***************************************************************************************************************************************

ppl judge him........ they all have different opinions abt him. he just listens patiently...smiles and moves on..... these ppl they dont know him dat well but still the speak as if they know him inside out. keeping his words in his mind he says " live my life and u'll know who i am and what i am".

he has not one but many faces each describes different phases of his life....... how many more faces are left to be discovered he doesnt know.
4 the time being hez satisfied with all those that are reveled to him .....

** he prays to god ...not to make him see anymore.

but life has funny way of teaching us, the moment you think that you are on the right track it turns the traffic against you.... !!

this is what i am ..... and this is what ill be " i guess "

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****Have you ever lived my life?
Spent one minute in my shoes?
If you haven’t then tell me why
You judge me as you do.

Have you ever sat beneath the stars
Hoping God will hear
Have you ever tried to smile
With your eyes blinded by tears.

Have you ever loved so much
That all you are left with is hate
Have you ever seen your family
Torn apart by fate.

Have you ever seen your friend get shot
Outside his favourite store
Have you ever seen a friend die
From drugs he’d never used before

Have you ever failed a test
That meant the world to you
Have you ever packed up all your books
And decide you wouldn’t study anymore.

Have you ever looked at the mirror
When everything goes all wrong
Have you ever felt so lonely
That there’s no one to tell you to be strong

Have you ever felt such hatred
That you hate everything in sight
Have you ever felt such pain
That you cried yourself to sleep at night

Have you ever been an outcast
Have you ever eaten your every meal alone
Have you ever tried so hard to make friends
Only to have people laugh back at you

Have you ever had the feeling
When Christmas and New year means nothing to you
Have you ever celebrated your birthday
By eating a chocolate bar all alone

.
Have you ever lived my life?
Spent one minute in my shoes?
If you haven’t then tell me why
You judge me as you do.

THATS ME........................ ASHISH AGRAWAL.

2006-08-14T20:16:00.000+05:30

SHER & SHAYARI

"MIRZA GHALIB"

mitti meri kabr pe gira raha hai koi
mar ke bhi mujhe yaad aa raha hai koi
ae khuda do pal ki zindagi aur de de
udsaas meri kabr se jaa raha hai koi.

unke dekhe se jo aa jaye hai chehre pe raunak
wo samajhte hai bimar ka haal achha hai.

Ek hi ullu kafi hai barbade gulistan ke liye
har shhakh pe ullu baitha hai anzame gulistan kya hoga

Lumha lumha bikhar raha hoon
main waqt hoon,guzar raha hoon
logon k dil main dard bunkar
janay kub say utar raha hoon
chehra chehra mayri kahanee
ankhon ankhon bikhar raha hoon
lay aee zindagi kahan per
upni aahut say dar raha hoon
sahmay sahmay say rastay hain
dar dar kay paaon dhar raha hoon
shehron main admi bohat hain
insan talash ker raha hoon
youn jee raha hoon Adil jaisay
main koi gunnah ker raha hoon ......

Dil hi toh hai na saang-o-khist,dard se bhar nah aaye kyun,
Royenge hum hazaar bar koi humein rulay kyun...

Na Kuch tha to Kudha tha
Na Kuch hota to Kudha hota
Duboya mujhko hone ne
Na main hota to kya hota..

meharbaan ho kar bula lo mujhay chaho jis waqt
main gaya waqt nahin hoon k phir aa bhee na sakoon
zeher milta hee nahin mujh ko sitamgur warna
kya kasam hai teray milnay kee keh khaa bhee na sakoon.

nadan hain jo kehte hain kyun jeete ho ghalib
kismat main hai marne ki tamanna koi din aur.

Zindagi apni jab is shaql se guzri 'ghalib'
Hum bhi kya yaad karenge ki khuda rakhte the.

zindagi se badhi saza hi nahin,
aur kya zulm hain pata bhi nahin.

Hamko maloom hai jannat ki haqeekat lekin
Dil ke khush rakhne ko ghalib ye khayaal achcha hai

2006-08-13T14:40:00.001+05:30

I HATE GANDHI.......why?

'cos i agree with "NATHU RAM GODSE"

Nathuram Godse's speech at trial .. Full text of Godse's speech at his trial.....

" On January 13, 1948, I learnt that Gandhiji had decided to go on fast unto death. The reason given was that he wanted an assurance of Hindu-Muslim Unity... But I and many others could easily see that the real motive... [was] to compel the Dominion Government to pay the sum of Rs 55 crores to Pakistan, the payment of which was emphatically refused by the Government.... But this decision of the people's Government was reversed to suit the tune of Gandhiji's fast. It was evident to my mind that the force of public opinion was nothing but a trifle when compared with the leanings of Gandhiji favourable to Pakistan.

....In 1946 or thereabout, Muslim atrocities perpetrated on Hindus under the Government patronage of Surhawardy in Noakhali made our blood boil. Our shame and indignation knew no bounds when we saw that Gandhiji had come forward to shield that very Surhawardy and began to style him as 'Shaheed Saheb' - a martyr - even in his prayer meetings...

....Gandhiji's influence in the Congress first increased and then became supreme. His activities for public awakening were phenomenal in their intensity and were reinforced by the slogans of truth and non-violence which he ostentatiously paraded before the country... I could never conceive that an armed resistance to the aggressor is unjust...

... Ram killed Ravan in a tumultuous fight... Krishna killed Kansa to end his wickedness... In condemning Shivaji, Rana Pratap and Guru Govind as 'misguided patriots,' Gandhiji has merely exposed his self-conceit... Gandhiji was, paradoxically,
a violent pacifist who brought untold calamities on the country in the name of truth and nonviolence, while Rana Pratap, Shivaji and the Guru will remain enshrined in the hearts of their countrymen forever...

....By 1919, Gandhiji had become desperate in his endeavours to get the Muslims to trust him and went from one absurd promise to another... He backed the Khilafat movement in this country and was able to enlist the full support of the National Congress in that policy... very soon the Moplah Rebellion showed that the Muslims had not the slightest idea of national
unity... There followed a huge slaughter of Hindus... The British Government, entirely unmoved by the rebellion, suppressed it in a few months and left to Gandhiji the joy of his Hindu-Muslim Unity... British Imperialism emerged stronger, the Muslims became more fanatical, and the consequences were visited on the Hindus...

The accumulating provocation of 32 years, culminating in his last pro-Muslim fast, at last goaded me to the conclusion that the existence of Gandhiji should be brought to an end immediately... he developed a subjective mentality under which he alone was the final judge of what was right or wrong... Either Congress had to surrender its will to him and play second fiddle to all his eccentricity, whimsicality... or it had to carry on without him... He was the master brain guiding the civil disobedience
movement... The movement may succeed or fail; it may bring untold disasters and political reverses, but that could make no difference to the Mahatma's infallibility... These childish inanities and obstinacies, coupled with a most severe austerity of life, ceaseless work and lofty character, made Gandhiji formidable and irresistible... In a position of such absolute
irresponsibility, Gandhiji was guilty of blunder after blunder...

....The Mahatma even supported the separation of Sindh from the Bombay Presidency and threw the Hindus of Sindh to the communal wolves. Numerous riots took place in Karachi, Sukkur, Shikarpur and other places in which the Hindus were the only sufferers...

....From August 1946 onwards, the private armies of the Muslim League began a massacre of the Hindus... Hindu blood began to flow from Bengal to Karachi with mild reactions in the Deccan... The Interim government formed in September was sabotaged by its Muslim League members, but the more they became disloyal and treasonable to the government of which they were
a part, the greater was Gandhi's infatuation for them...

....The Congress, which had boasted of its nationalism and socialism, secretly accepted Pakistan and abjectly surrendered to Jinnah. India was vivisected and one-third of the Indian territory became foreign land to us... This is what Gandhiji had achieved after 30 years of undisputed dictatorship, and this is what Congress party calls 'freedom'...

....One of the conditions imposed by Gandhiji for his breaking of the fast unto death related to the mosques in Delhi occupied by Hindu refugees. But when Hindus in Pakistan were subjected to violent attacks he did not so much as utter a single word to protest and censure the Pakistan government...

Gandhi is being referred to as the Father of the Nation. But if that is so, he had failed his paternal duty inasmuch as he has acted very treacherously to the nation by his consenting to the partitioning of it... The people of this country were eager and vehement in their opposition to Pakistan. But Gandhiji played false with the people...

....I shall be totally ruined, and the only thing I could expect from the people would be nothing but hatred... if I were to kill Gandhiji. But at the same time, I felt that Indian politics in the absence of Gandhiji would surely be proved practical, able to retaliate, and be powerful with armed forces. No doubt, my own future would be totally ruined, but the nation would be saved from the inroads of Pakistan...

....I do say that my shots were fired at the person whose policy and action had brought rack and ruin and destruction to millions of Hindus... There was no legal machinery by which such an offender could be brought to book, and for this reason I fired those fatal shots...

....I do not desire any mercy to be shown to me... I did fire shots at Gandhiji in open daylight. I did not make any attempt to run away; in fact I never entertained any idea of running away. I did not try to shoot myself... for, it was my ardent desire to give vent to my thoughts in an open Court. My confidence about the moral side of my action has not been shaken even by
the criticism levelled of against it on all sides. I have no doubt, honest writers of history will weigh my act and find the true value thereof some day in future. "

what i believe:

believe is the true sense of Patriotism! A blow on the nation is a blow on the self; and self esteem is the most important thing to be upheld by anyone living- the only alternative being Death! Not to resist the influx of cancer in the cells of the body; but to ask one to live in harmony with it- is RIDICULOUS! NON VOILENCE is to refrain the use of force against a tranquil front; and not to refrain from Self Defence against a dark force hurting the self. Indians were herded to believe submission to the wrong was virtue! Indians were decieved to accept- to sacrifice was virtue- but sacrifice for whose sake, for whose good, to what end- were never mentioned! Truth is an Absolute, a Fact, a Declaration- and no experiments are possible with it. Yet "His Experiments With Truth" led to a wrong "Discovery Of (modern) India". If he actually deserves being called the Father of the Nation- He has BETRAYED his Parental Duties...

"Khoon Se Khelenge Holi Gar Watan Mushkil Mein Hain..."

2006-08-02T15:40:00.000+05:30

" THE JOY AND GRIM OF 26TH OF JULY"

2day terror attacks are more common than heart attacks. remeber the dates
*9/11
*7/7
*7/11
these were this decades 3 most horrendous terror attacks. more than 1000 ppl died in these three attacks.and who were responcible for such inhumanitarian incidents....
"some non islamic ppl" who believe that the road to salvation (i.e dere so called "JIHAD") is terrerisom/genocide.
related to these people their is another incident that will go down in the annals of indian defence forces as indian armyz most comprehencive victory of all times.
we lost so many soldiers in kargil. so many families and villages shattred.
but i guess the phrase still holds true" to get something we have to loose something".
we won the war,we captured point 5140 (TIGER HILL). But all this at the expence of many lives. for those who lost their loved ones the line "all is well that ends well" is mearly an illusion of words that tries to pacify their pain.

"WE WON THE WAR ON 26 JULY"

india was rejoicing. india stood high in the eyes of this world. the sensex shot up by 1500 pts. the 1st world nations were criticising pakistan for such an act. what more could india have asked for.

but time has a nagging habit of playing obnoxious games. 26th july was ready to move into the history books as an anniversary of the success of "operation VIJAY". it wanted something more. rather it wanted more blood. so the death toll started again on 26th july 2005, when torential rains poured down on2 the city of mumbai. it rained and rained for days ,drenchin the city with muddy water. theere was water login on the road upto 4-5 fts. roads on which ferrariz,porschez,toyotas,marutiz rolled were geting "car washed" (in leterral sence) in their garages. the new king of the road were peddled boats.

many died in the waters logged roads. many buildings collapsed giving more money and labour to the tombstone makers and to the pandits @ the ghats. the death toll shot up to 500 in few days. many children drowned, got crushed under the debris of the collapsed buildings, many starved to death, scores of them died 'cos of epidemic....(this can go on). the whole city was devastated with such an incident. mother nature has once again shown her merciless terror. lot of money and lives were wasted in such a calamity.

"THIS WAS ALL ON 26TH OF JULY".

THIS DAY IS FINALLY DOWN IN OUR HISTORY BOOKS IN "BLACK" AND "WHITE" LETTERS.

OR..... HAS 26TH JULY MORE INSTORE 4 US??????

2006-08-01T20:30:00.000+05:30

"MEMENTO REVIEW"

LADIZ, LADIES, LADYZ, LADYS..
NO MATTER HOW U SPELL THAT WORD..the mystery, the enigma that surrounds this word afer the physical transfromation of this word in2 human for ...prevails.

what do i mean???
aaahhaaaa..
well we all know behind every succsessful man there is a wife and a surprised mother-in-law.( 2 powerful ladies)
behind the horrendicity surroundin a mans life there is a women. (e.g. d story of city TROY). behind a broken heart of a boi/man there is a women.

"now 2 add 2 this stream of behind every...thing....here is one more story"

BEHIND THE COMPLEXCITIES OF A MAN'S BRAIN AND BEHIND EVERY ENTANGLED MEMORY/THOUGHT OF A MAN IS A WOMEN:

this my dear frds is on what "memento" ...is based on.

THE MOVIE:
well know whata falsh back is...the end is shown...then somebody starts thinkin abt the past incidents and then the movie starts off ..from the a day in the past.
"MEMENTO" ...is also picturizd in the same manner i.e "flash back"..but in a different style.
the last scene is shown. then the an incident just b4 the last one is show.
(and then the incident b4 the 2nd last one....and so on).

in the movie. the actor has some kida memory problem "kind of amnesia". that 2 short term. as long as he keeps hiself focued on a partical person or an incident he remebers it. but the moment he takes his mind off it...he forgets that person or incident. (even if that incident took place min ago.)

the man hu was responsile for this condition of his was his wifez murderer.
"SO HERE WE SEE ...LADY COMES AGAIN"
so this actor goes on the hunt of her wifez murderer. and an inspector helps him.
well this story isnt that simple.there is a catch. his wifez death...was because of somethin else.( this is the mystry of the movie).

as the movie builds up the actor meets diff. people. he tries to remember them by taking their photographs and ritin their names and their details(like ph no. add. and whether they can b trusted or not..etc)

in the end he catches the his guy. but he finds out somethin else ( the truth) that he never believed would hav happend.
(and he didnt bel. it)
he (the actor) also kills one more person. whom he should hav killed.

The actor tatoos himself with all the vital info . that was req. 2 find the killer.

NOTE: " THE MOVIE IS KIND OF DIFFILCULT 2 EXPLAIN ....BETTER WATCH IT..."

ONE EXCELENT MOVIE....
THE MOVIE KEEPS EVERYBODY INTRESTED.THE THRIL/EXCITEMEN/MYSTRY/SUSPENCE....EVERYTHING IS MAINT. @ EVERY STEP.

NOT EVERYONE WILL UNDERSTAND IT @ ONE GO.....SO PPL MAY HAVE TO LEAP AND SKIP THE MOVIE D 2ND TIME 2.

RATING: 8/10

WHEN U WATCH THE MOVIE U'LL COEM 2 KNOW THAT....THE ACTOR WENT THRU SUCH SHIT THINGS.....JUST FOR A WOMEN.
AND YA NOT JUST ONE BUT 2.
HE DID A BIT OF "THIS THAT" WITH A GUY 4 "CARRIE AN MOSS"

2006-07-25T11:55:00.000+05:30

POTC-2 "DEAD MAN'S CHEST "---REVIEW

THE DEAD MAN'S CHEST.....ok..what should i say.....this i how the movie was..." a big BLANK with a Q mark at the end .........?"the movie started and ended in a snap of fingers. acc. 2 me it was not as ppl would hav expected it 2 be. it was as if ..the movie was an obligation 4 mr Gore Verbinski. ....he had 2 make it ....just 2 keep the trend of maintainin seqlz. of gr8 fresh movies. there was nothin in the movie..."no excitement,no heart poundin action or scenes,no thrill." .one thing was dere."comedy in action"AND THAT 2 'COS OF A DRUNKEN PIRATE.....CAPTAIN JACK SPARROW"THE PLOT WAS FINE ...THIS COULD HAV BIN A ANOTHER GR8 MOVIE.BUT...THE DIRECTION WAS SO HAZY, SO BRUSQUE...THAT THE AUDIENCE....WERE LEFT HEARTBROKEN..PPL WERE EXPECTING ALOY FROM THIS POTC BUT.......IN THE END WHAT SAVED THE DAY " BARRELS OF RUM"..HEHEH i ma not jokin..yesRUM.....HAD IT NOT BEEN "CAP. JACK SPARROW AND HIS RUM"...THE MOVIE WOULD HAV BEEN A TOTAL FIASCO.depp with his state of the art actin has once again kept the sprit of the movie alive.HIS DRUNKEN BRITISH ACCENT IS JUST AWESOME. "THE BLOOOOOOOODEEEEEE KEY"HAHAH
"GAG BAG"
Marty: [looking at the cloth] It's a key!

Jack Sparrow: No! Much more better. It is a drawing of a key. Gentlemen, what do keys do?

Marty: Keys... unlock... things?

Gibbs: And whatever this key unlocks, inside there's something valuable. So, we're setting out to find whatever this key unlocks.

Jack Sparrow: No! If we don't have the key, we can't open whatever it is we don't have that it unlocks. So what purpose would be served in finding whatever need be unlocked, which we don't have, without first having found the key what unlocks it?

Gibbs: So... we're going after this key?

Jack Sparrow: You're not making any sense at all.

2 COMCLUDE ....ITS A TIME PASSS MOVIE..NOT 2 GR8 NA D NOT 2 LOW..CAN WATCH IT.....NOT MANY PPL MIGHT NOT AGREE WITH ME AFTER THEY HAV WATCHED D MOVIE...BUT THAT WAS MY OPIN..RATIN: 2.5/5

2006-07-22T11:45:00.000+05:30

SOCIETY...

well what does society exactly mean...lets c the dict. meaning of society

"A society is a self-reproducing grouping of individuals occupying a particular territory, which may have its own distinctive culture and institutions".

that is how society is define. but today it true sence and meaning is an aberration (according to me). its meaning has bin twisted and turned in many ways..since its evolution.
society 2day no longer include humans. these days its a group of all those money suckin, spend thrifts, irrational,coward,selfish pepople for whom the world is a stage,life is a play and they r the star of that filthy show. society today is full of pretenders. people just cant stop behavin as they r.
they want to be everything they r not and moreover they want to be what they can never become. such people only live for themselves. such is the society day.
look aroubd people ...what do u see in citiz like "delhi, new york...etc"......a crystal clr glimpse of "SOCIETY"....
these people talk and live as if the world is at their feet.this is a show ("society") that is hittin the charts even though its one complete shit.these people (members of the so called "society") dont care abt anythin....(they just keep their eyes closed).

this is society...........hmmmm